Chp 15

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Sometime has passed now. And it's been a nice little while (and I'm talking a while) since after Solo got here. Things have been crazy for me after having to transition into my new found life, but it was great at the same time because i felt like i am growing as a person and as a woman. My relationship with Jay was coming along swell, but i figured we were in this little love at first sight type of spell, so giving it a few more weeks things could either stay good or go bad. But i wasn't trying to think about the future, especially not this soon. I have too much going on for me to let some pettiness get in the way. I had too focus.

"B you dressed?" Jay asked as he was coming into my room.

"Why do you say that and you say it every time as if you never seen me naked?" i teased.

"Yea and how long ago was that?" Jay mumbled.

"What?!" i said trying to snap my bra together, then i looked up over at Jay who was looking back at me and well..."So your just gonna stand there and watch me struggle." i asked.

"So you mean to tell me you been wearing a bra for how long and you don't know how to snap it?" he asked then crossed his arms, giving me another straight face.

I giggled a bit. "Yeaaa..." i whined. "I just got my nails done and i refuse to mess up this cherry red paint."

"Really? Really B?" Jay said in an annoying voice. "You know what you sound like right now?"

"What?" i asked annoyed.

"A BIT----" he said then burst out laughing "Hahaaha I'm just fucking with you , you know i would never call you that." He said seeming to be entertained, but i wasn't.

"I wish you would..." i mumbled getting in my last little word. Then Jay decided to finally come over and help, but i decided i wasn't going to wear a bra so i took it off and tossed it on the bed, letting the girls sit out and look pretty.  "Nope, don't touch me now." I teased as Jay tried to make a move. "You were just too busy trying to joke around and shit."

"Ohhh some body maddd" he said in a mocking voice that really just annoyed me. This is one of those days where Jay's silliness isn't funny.

"Boyyyy! ....Ch" i said to myself as i put on my shirt.Then rushed out the room after hearing a loud sound coming from the  kitchen.

I rushed into the kitchen to find a big spill and Mileena, Jay's daughter who was now living with Jay after staying with his mother for so long. The reason why was because Jay didnt have the time to be a full time dad, but Jay explained to me that when he would tell me that he was going on a business trip, he was really going to spend time with Mileena which made more sense to me because his ass was always gone.

"Im sorry miss Beyonce." Mileena said in a innocent voice.

"Oh its okay baby..." i said going over to pick up the empty juice carton. "Are you still thirsty?"

"What happened?" Jay asked coming in all late.

"She spilled the juice, evidently." i replied still annoyed by Jay.

Jay just gave me a look and continued to stand there.

"Well dont just stand there atleast help or something." i said picking up dripping pieces of paper towel and carrying them to the trash.


Jay still stood there giving me another look, but the look i had was more fearful. It only took Jay a few more seconds to realize that because after that he started helping.

"miss Beyonce...ar--are you mad at my daddy?" Mileena asked still standing in the same place she was when i first came in the kitchen.

"No sweety..." i said quickly changing my attitude as i forgot she was standing there. From there i picked her up and took her into the living room, giving her a juice and leaving Jay there to clean up the mess. I wasnt so much rushing, but i was in a bit of a rush because i had a client i was suppose to be meeting with today about designing something for them. It just so happened to be Jay's friend Gwyn, Chris wife.

After getting Mileena situated, i went back into the back to finish getting ready. No sooner after i had gotten back there, Jay came strolling into the room. "Whats your problem?" he quickly shot at me.

"Nothing." i replied.

"Well i find that hard to believe the way you been snapping all morning." he said.

"Well im telling you nothing...the more you keep bothering me about this is going to quickly turn into a problem in a minute." i said, as i applied some more blush to my face.

"Whatever." Jay said then walked out the room.

Once I was done getting ready i left, giving Jay a dry ass good bye. I got to work 15 mins later then what I expected because of the damn traffic. Which added more frustration to how I was already feeling. On top of that I hate being when I know I have someone waiting on me.

I walked in the store to see Angie doing her daily rituals. Ty was out for today. Gwyn was waiting in the waiting area of my store which was very nice and cozy. I walked up on her in the middle of her reading a magazine.

"Gwyn..." I said getting her attention.

"Your hereeee" she said with excitement rushing up to greet me. She was always warm and opening when greeting someone.

"How are you?" I asked trying to be polite and not let my attitude show.

"I've been good. Just been busy as preparing for the MET GALA then on top of that I have to be mommy as well..." She replied.

"Oh you have a child?" I asked surprised. Her body was still in good figure.

"Yup Apple who is 1 and I just found out a few days ago that I'm expecting again?" She said happily.

"Really." I asked, being that she didn't even look like it. By this time we were already in my office.

"Uhm-hm and after that, I'm done." She went on to stay and we both laughed. "Do you have any kids?"

"Oh No." I replied sharply. Then started thinking about Jay and Mileena. "But I guess in a way I kind of do...my boyfriend has a child." I went on to say.

"Ohhh..." she responded. "If you dont mind me asking, but are you and Jay together?"She asked.

"Yeaaa." I responded slowly, unsure if if I should have told her that. "Why do you ask?"

"Because I seen you guys out a few times, and he spoke highly of you when I asked him for your number and about your work, and well you two look cute together...." She said cheerfully. "And i was also hoping, because when I found out he was with that model chick, I was nun-uhnn, what happened to my girl." She said referring to me and Eva.

"Tell me about it..." I said laughing.

"I'm so happy. Now we can double date." She said excitedly.

Gosh this chick is very jolly I thought. But she was cool.

"Yea. That should be fun."

"You guys have too come to LA to visit." She said.

"Oh of course. Whenever Jay and I have time." I replied.

"Where gonna be good friends." Gwyn said.

I just nodded and smiled politely. Couldn't say for sure, but if she was more like she is, then I think so.


Gwyn and I work briefly on the final details for her sample piece. I was designing her a dress to where for a red carpet event here in NY. I knew if I teamed up with Gwyn, with her type of celebrity status, then it could take B.K. to a whole other level. In the midst of working with Gwyn I relieved a call from my girl Keyshia, saying how she was in town and wanted to meet up. But because I was working with Gwyn I couldn't leave right away. I also ended up missing my normal lunch time, so Keyshia picked up some grub and met me at my house. But I was a little late getting back because Jay had me come pick up Mileena. Soon after picking up Mileena I was arriving at my place.

"Well took you long enough.." She playfully bitched, meeting me in the lobby of my place.

"I'm sorry...I had too make a pit stop." I said referring to Mileena.

"Ohh who is this little cutie." She said beginning to speak to Mileena. "Hi there honey."

"Hiiiii...." Mileena said shyly hiding behind me.

"Who's little girl is this?" Keyshia asked again.

"Remember that guy I told you about last time you came..." I said refreshening her memory of the conversation she and I had about Jay.

"The Jay guy right." She said and I nodded in agreement. "You know he's friends with Jeez, yea I seen him a few times in Atl at a couple things Jeezy had going on." Jeezy was Keyshia's boyfriend. He was a famous rapper.

"Man who doesn't this guy know?" I asked, but mostly too myself.

Keyshia giggling. "So yal finally then went ahead and did them damn thing huh." She said. By this time we were up in my apartment.

"Sshhhh..." I said reaching across the counter to hit Keyshia, who had just began eating. "Don't forget she's right here." I tried to say quietly so Mileena wouldn't hear us.

"Oops my bad." She said quieter. "So when did yal make it official?" She asked.

"About a couple of weeks ago..." I said beginning to think. "If not more, but it was around the time Solo moved up here."

"Aw shit..." Keyshia said excitedly. "She's finally up here, whaaaaat?!"

"Really bitch..." I whispered giving her a straight face. "Didn't I just tell you, she's only right there." I said not so much caring, but I didn't want the little girl walking around with a fealty mouth.

"My bad." She said putting on a guilty face.

"It's cool." I chuckled.

"What time is it?" Keyshia asked. "We should go out later, I wanna do something."

"It's 4:44." I replied. "And yea lets, I'm about to call up the crew right now." I said getting excited. I was down for going out. I could sure use some time out after having to deal with Gwyn, Jay, and Mileena.

"Speaking of crew, how's Michelle, when was the last time you talked too her?" She asked.

"Girl...." I said dramatically after Almaty having forgot about her.

"It's been about a year, but she wrote me a letter a few months back and said she should becoming home soon." Michelle was another friend of ours, I met her in my high school years, at a school event, been good friends ever since. When she turned 21 she enlisted into the marines corp, and so we hardly ever see her.

"Dam--..." She said almost about to cuss again but stopped. " I mean dannnggg, I still can't believe she really went and joined. I never pictured her doing anything like that."

"I knnoooow, it's crazy but she did and more power to her."

Keyshia and I sat around talking and eating until Keyshia left. We had set plans to go out later on so she went off to get ready and we were going to meet back up. It was just going to be Keyshia and I because Ty never answered, Angie said she wasn't in the mood, and Kelly was sick. Which was cool because I can hang with them all day long but with Keyshia I can't. It was a little past 6 and I was getting irritated because Jay wast answering my calls it returning any of my texts. But he sent me a text nearly 40 minutes saying that he was on his way home. I didn't know I rather I should just relax, be mad, or be worried.

I didn't want to flip out because I wanted to believe that he would come home. But then I was mad because he stuck me with Mileena. And I was worried because I was hoping that nothing didn't happen. I was so confused. All I know was that I had plans to go out. So I called Angie back up to see if she could keep Mileena, and she agreed.

Instead of dropping Mileena off, I waited for Angie to come over to my place. I didn't want to have Mileena in a unusual setting, and it would be easy to just come home drunk instead of ripping and running all over the place. Angie got the right before 8 and when she did I dipped out. I met up with Keyshia across town at this Lesbian Bar down in the city. Keyshia was that friend who brought out your wild side out, no matter what if your with Keyshia you were always going to have a good time.

I found myself and parked then called Keyshia to see where she was at. We talked all the way until she got to my car.

"Hi Gorgeous...." She said getting into the car.

"Hey Beautiful..." I said back. "You look cute."

"Thanks..." She said. "And I loooovve the shoes." She stated.

"Thank ya...you ready to go in." I said after doing a last minute check.

"Yea...but hold up a minute I want to finish this." She said pulling out a something that looked closely too a cigarette but wasn't.

"I thought you quit." I teased.

"I did but Jeez ass been stressing me out lately...he keeps pressuring me about having a baby." She said taking a hit.

"We'll why don't you, yal been together for what... 5 years?"

"Yea...buts it's not that I don't want to its just I got so much going on for me which me launching my own line and everything so the timing is everything is a little off." She expressed.

"Yea I feel you. But damn, I hope yal are able to work through it." I implied.

"Yea me too." She said taking another hit, then in attempt to pass it to me. "Oh yea I forgot." She said laughing.

"Shit I mine as well, it's Friday...I'm off of work, and I ain't finna sit in the house and look like no fool." I joked and we both laughed.

I was bad at first when I tried smoking, but with Keyshia's help I did just fine. We both walked into that bar high as heel and feeling ourselves. We got us a booth, ordered a bottle, and a couple shots to start us off with. We finished our bottle kind of fast aside from the other drinks we ordered, then found our selves ordering some more.

Keyshia and I were turning up and out at the bar to tonight. Slowly and surely out area started feeling with a whole bunch of different women. All trying yo party with and hit on Keyshia and I. Then one of them really took a liken to Keyshia, giving her all types of attention. I'm not no homophobic or anything but it got a bit extreme so I dipped off to the bathroom.

I staggered against the stalls trying to make my way to the sink, to look in the mirror. I looked up and saw pure blurriness. My ass was faded. I pulled out my phone to check the time, it read 12:13. I also saw that I had a few missed calls from Angie and a hell of a lot from Jay, including a few texts. Some how I dialed my voicemail trying to call Jay only to find he left some nasty voice messages. I was so clueless as to why he would be doing such a thing, so I called back and finally got a hold of him.

"What is your problem?"I quickly said after hearing him pick up.

"So you leave my daughter alone with someone she doesn't know so that you could go out." He said talking over me.

"Wait whhhhaaat?" I said drunkenly, not catching a word he just said.

"You heard me!" Jay continued to snap.

Out of nowhere I started laughing. "Nooo I really didn't."

"Look if you want to go out that's fine, but don't be leaving my daughter with people she doesn't know." He replied sharply.

"First off I left her with Angie...and secondly don't be coming at me with that nonsense when you were the one who left her with me anyway. Next time answer your fuu--..." I began spazzing but I got hung up on.

Oh no the mother fucker didn't, i thought to myself. But before I got a chance to hit the call button, Keyshia came strolling in.

"Where did you go? I was missing you." Keyshia said talking in a baby voice, it was just something that we did.

"Jay's mad at me." I said in that same voice pouting.

"Why what you do?" She asked.

"Because!...." I said frustratedly. "I had Angie watch Mileena while we went out."

"And so...?" She said all nonchalant.

"Right that's what I was thinking at first, then he was all like he doesn't want her around anybody she doesn't know and Bla Bla Bla."

"We'll fuck him...don't let him ruin your night. He shouldn't of left you with get in the first place." She said cheering me up.

"Right. Come on Ke, I'm ready to dance."

From there I went back out into the bar, to finish up my night and do what I came to do which was have a good time. And the more I partied the less I forgot about Jay and his foolishness.

Coming home, I prepared myself for more of Jays bickering. Only to find that my apartment was cold and empty. I sat on the couch slummed and drunk, waiting on Keyshia to come up then finally she did. She was down there playfully harassing Miguel the desk clerk.

"I thought I was gonna come up here to a death match." She said staggering in.

"Nooo..." I chuckled. "He's not here, he's probably back down the hall."

"Oh shit, yal stay right next door to each other." She said beginning to laugh. "I wonder how that's going to work out."

"Yea I know. I'm surprised he hasn't made his way down here yet."

"Well I'm gonna go to sleep on that one, I do not want to be awake for that." she teased.

"Ha ha ha.." I laughed. "Very funny, but good night." I said as Keyshia made her way too bed.

I couldn't even go to bed right away because I was sitting and thinking on how I was going to resolve things with Jay, but just not tonight. Maybe in the morning when both of us had enough time to clear our heads and for me sober down.

The next morning I awoke to a knock on the door. I just knew that it was jay being how early it was. I'm pretty sure the sun wasn't even fully awake yet. I crawled my butt out of bed, feeling so drained and hung over. And leave it to Jay to want to talk early as hell.

I opened the door to see Jay standing there. The awkwardness between us made it feel like the first time we met which was sort if like this. But instead I was in my clothes from last night and I was the one reeking of alcohol. Jay on the other hand was very well dressed, as if he were going out. I'm surprised that Jay was still standing in the hallway instead of barging in like he always does.

"You know you could come in." I said breaking the silence.

"I know." He answered in a smart like tone. "I just came down here to see if you were still going to keep Mileena, while I go and take care of some business."

The the nerve of this man. After all that shit he talked last night and after hanging up on me then not talking to me for the rest if the night, but wants me to watch Mileena. I couldn't believe him.

"Damn." I said angrily. "You really got some nerve, don't you?" I began to snap.

"Look I ain't got time to sit and argue." Jay said calmly but you could tell that he had an attitude. "Are you or your not?"

"Yeeeea." I said frustratedly.

"Cool, well she's down there eating, I got to run though. Yal could stay there or you could bring her back here, it doesn't matter. But if yal do decide to hit the town let me know.....Im out." He replied just before walking off.

"No kiss good bye." I teased knowing Jay had an attitude. He just grunted at me and kept on.

Shortly after Jay left, I made my way down to his apartment, with Mileena. When I got there, she had finished eating but was still sitting at the table just quiet and innocently.

"Hey there sugar." I said cheerfully, making my way over to her.

She lit up as soon as she heard my voice. "Miss Beeeeeeeeeeeee" she said running towards me. Wow this girl has really taken a liken too me, I thought.

"Hey baby..." I said happily feeling so loved.

"Where were you lastnight? Daddy was mad you were gone..."She said.

"Oh was he now."I said aloud to myself.

"I thought you don't like me, I thought you left me and never come back." She said sad like.

"Oh baby...I will never leave you. And Miss B, loves you very much."

She smiled up at me. Then said some words to me that were going to change me forever. "Miss B...." she said. By this time we were sitting on the couch and I was flicking through the channels trying to find us something to watch.

"Yesss...." I replied worried what might
come out of her mouth.

"I wis-sh you could be my mommy, I don't have one. Her died when I was little, that's why my daddy have me. And GG takes care of me." She went in to say.

I was so in awe of Mileena and I was also heart broken and crushed at the same time. It was no way that I could be this girl's mother. I'm not sure if Jay and I will even last that long, and I can't say for sure if we will but I am hoping. And don't get me wrong Mileena has grown on me in a way but taking that motherly responsibility was something I'm not prepared for nor ready to do.

"I wish I could be your mother too, Mileena, but I'm not. But if you want you can call me mom or mommy and whatever." I said cheering her up.

"I cannnnn..." She said excitedly, beginning to bounce around on the couch. Now mind you I was still hung over from last night, so I instantly became noxious.

"Ugh." I said holding my stomach after becoming sick.

"Are you ok, mommy B." she said concerned and scared. You know how kids get when they think something is wrong.

"Yea I'm fine baby..." I said lying, to keep her from freaking out. "Mommy B has to go to the bathroom." I said getting up. "You just stay here and watch tv."

"Ok." She said watching me as I slowly staggered off to the bathroom.

I sat in the bathroom waiting for like ever to just throw up already. But it seemed my stomach just wanted to play tricks on me. After settling down, I went in the kitchen to drink a glass of water to hydrate myself and keep my stomach calm. And as I sat back on the couch with Mileena, looking at her my mind began to drift off imagining my life as a mother and Mileena being my actual daughter. I unconsciously held my stomach at the thought of me being with child. In my mind it seemed so perfect but in reality it was a whole other story. I sat and contemplated over the idea of mothering Mileena, but my thoughts got interrupted by a text from Jay.

How are my girls doing?

Well well well, I take it your not mad anymore.

I know, I know. I acted an ass last night but I'm over it and I'm sorry.

Yea, you did. But I'm sorry too. And speaking of lastnight where were you and why didn't you answer the phone for me.

Well after the leaving the office, I headed over to the studio to see a good friend of mine. I ended up cutting my phone off during his studio session. Then lost the track of time and well....

Did it ever occur to you that I might of had plans and wouldn't of been able to keep Leena yesterday?

I didn't think about that and I apologize once again.

It's okay. I understand. So what time do you think you'll be home?

Probably 5, you want take out or something cooked from the house.

Ok. And I can see what I Dan throw together.

You can cook??? lol And breakfast doesn't count.

Lol remind we to leave you something extra on your plate.

Aw damn straight up.

Well you started it, saying I couldn't cook.

You know I was just playing. But if you do cook, make sure Leena doesnt eat. Lmao

Oh I see you got jokes, remember that the next time you wanna have sex.

Now you know I'm just playing, and speaking of sex, your gonna be ready when I come home right?

lol what about Leena?

Oh don't worry. Her god father is coming to pick her up soon, you think you can have her ready?

Yea, I guess. Around what time.

2 or 3, but I gave him your number so that he could call you when he was on his way.

Ok.

Well alright, I gotta get back to work. Ill see you later.

Ok. I replied ending the text convo.

After talking to Jay i felt much better. Although we are already having minor arguments I feel Jay and I can work through anything. I mean it's only the beginning an I can I only be patient and see where things go. But as for now I was fine and comfortable with Jay and Mileena, and just my life as a whole.

Chp14

Waking up the next morning, it felt good to look over and see Jay lying right beside me. Minus the drooling and the loud snoring, Jay was quite attractive while he was a sleep. I moseyed up off the couch and made my way into the bathroom. Before actually using the bathroom, i checked myself in the mirror to see how cute i looked waking up and saw that Jay had left his mark all over my neck. I guess today wouldnt be a bad day to pull my hair up thanks too him. But i didnt care, for once i was actually happy and comfortable with the guy i was dating.

After using the bathroom, i made my way into the kitchen trying not to wake the Jay. I hate that when i drink, i am normally up super early and my throat gets all dry which was why i was going into the kitchen. But only to become disappointed by the emptiness of the fridge. I forgot that we had helped Solo move yesterday. Hell i even forgot where  i was for a minute. I made my way back into the room, after checking on everyone who was passed out in the living room.

When i got back in the living room, Jay was laid out on his stomach with his hand stretched out across the pillow as if he was reaching for me but i wasn't there. I crawled back onto the couch with Jay, but kind of laying myself on top of his back. I was in no mood to go back to sleep so i just made myself comfortable until Jay got up. He rolled around for a few times before finally waking up. I guess the pressure of me lying on him was starting to get to him.

"Good morning." he uttered, still trying to shake his tiredness.

"Good morning." i replied in humor, i could tell Jay was a man who likes his sleep.

"What time is it?" he asked sitting up as he felt for his phone.

"8:47...." i answered.

"Whats wrong with you?" Jay said as i began to space off.

"oh nothing..." i replied not paying attention to myself lose focus. "Im just hungry and my throat is parched."

"Damn.....thats right. She did just move in here." Jay said. "You wanna go run and grab a few things?" Jay asked.

"Yea we can, but should i wake Solo up?" i asked, beginning to get up as Jay did.

"Na." Jay said putting on his shoes. "Let them sleep. Im about to go in here and use the bathroom, then we can go ahead and dip out after this."

"ok." i nodded, then began getting myself ready to go shopping with Jay. This should be exciting.

Moments later Jay came out the bathroom and i went off to brush my teeth and wash my face. I mean i can't just go out looking and smelling like any old thing. And once that was out the way Jay and I headed out. We came across the first grocery store that we could find. We got to the store and Jay came over to open my door. He was such a gentlemen. He even paid for the groceries even after i pulled out my card and gave it to the guy. He just took the card right out the guy's hand and handed it back to me, giving him his. I didn't mind Jay's cockiness, thats probably what i liked the most about him but still its a way to do things. And that was not one. I rode in brief silence on the way home trying to gather my thoughts and words for Jay until Jay cut the music down and acknowledged something was bothering me.

"You okay?" he asked casually.

"Noo." i said not holding back. "I just didnt like the way you handled things back at the store thats all." i simply answered.

"Really?" he said a bit humored by what i had said. "I was just playing around and besides I'm have a good relationship with the owner." he replied.

"Well i guess....But i still didnt like it, playing or not i still thought it was rude." i stated.

Jay letting out a deep sigh. "Im sorry...and i appreciate you telling me. And i'll think about what you said for future references."

Wow, that was easy i thought. "Ok..." i said with a smile. Feeing relieved that Jay didnt blow up at something so petty, but because he didnt i just had to know why. "So youuuuur not mad or anything?"

(Jay's input)
I wasnt mad at Beyonce in anyway. I respected the fact that she was comfortable with telling me about myself because i could see how someone could mistake my behavior earlier as rude. And if she's going to be apart of my life i would want her to put me in check or back in my place. Those are the type of people i have in my life and those are the type of people you need. And as far as being in a relationship, you have too pick and choose your battles and this was not one worth fighting.


"No. Why would i be mad?" he responded with a light laughter.

"It's just that most guys typically get mad when a woman generally they're spouse or significant other tries telling them something about their self." i explained.

"Well i think that you would find I'm not your typically guy..." he replied abruptly.

"I know...it's jus--....well." I said not knowing what to say exactly after that. I just figured i'd leave the conversation alone before i said anything to put us into an argument. Jay looked at me like he was waiting on me to say something but ignored the fact that i became lost for words, and we rode back to Solo's listening to the music. Jay grabbed most of the bags and i grabbed the few that he couldn't carry. And we were greeted at the door by Solo. By this time, very one was just starting to wake up.

"So thats where you guys went?" Solo said happily surprised as she saw us bringing in the groceries. "I was beginning to wonder, i was just getting ready to call too." she also went on to say.

"I woke this morning thirsty as ever and when i saw that the fridge was empty, we decided to just go to the store." i replied.

"Ohh thanks yal, i really appreciate it. Because i didnt even think about all that yesterday when we were moving." she said back.

"Its all good. No need to thank us." Jay joined in. "Just make sure i get dibs on the first plate."

"You got it." Solo said laughing.

After getting the food put up and everything Solo began cooking. I went on to keep Juelz company, while Jay and the others showered and got ready. I was in the middle of playing with Juelz when i was embraced by a warm loving kiss from Jay upon my cheek.

"Is the food almost ready?" he asked as he sat aside of me.

"Nope...just about." i said back. "So is everything all set for me to get in?" i asked referring to the shower.

"Yeaup." Jay replied. "Now you just hand me little man here.." Jay said grabbing him away from me. "And go ahead and get showered and stuff."

"Alright." i said. "Are you sure your gonna be ok with him while I'm in the shower?" i asked considerately.

"I have 3 nephews and a niece. I know how to deal with kids." He shot back.

"Weeelll alright....im just saying." I said then went on and got in the shower.

By the time i got out the shower the food was done and they had already started eating.

"Damnnnn, yal couldn't wait for me though?" i said walking into the kitchen and seeing Solo stuff her face.

"Well your ass shouldn't have been taking a 20 minute shower." Solo teased.

"Shut your face." i said back as i started fixing on my plate. "Where's Jay?" i asked noticing him not in the kitchen.

"He's in the living room with the baby." Solo replied. And after fixing my plate i made my way in there with Jay and Juelz.

It seemed Jay really took a liken to Juelz. I walked in and the 2 of them were just laughing it up. Jay's plate was also untouched, which meant he never stopped tending to Juelz.

"Well, well, well..." i said getting Jays attention. "I see someone found them a new friend." i said cheerfully as i made my way to sit down.

"Tell her thats right Auntie BB..." Jay said speaking to Juelz but also to me. "little dude is a trip." Jay said smiling as if Juelz were his son or something.

"Yea he is...." i agreed.

"Omg Jaaaaay!...." Solo said entering the living room. "You know you could have just put him in is playpen you didnt have to hold him all that time."

"Ohh na it's cool, we were just chilling. And besides...i couldn't have left him in that playpen by him self...he would have been bored."

"Thats what he has toys for silly!" She said reaching out for Juelz. "Now Ju Ju say good bye to Uncle Jay...mommy gotta get her big man all washed up."

"Uncle?" i ask asmusedly.

"Yea, Unlce." Solo replied. "Dont front like yal aint got sh-- i mean stuff going on. We all can see that. And uhm F.Y.I my vents work extremely well." she added then walked off before i could say something back.

"See i told you, you were talking too loud." Jay teased.

"Shut up stuuuupid." i said hitting him.

"You better stop hitting me. That shit aint gonna keep flying." Jay continued.

"Womp. Womp. Womp." i said antagonizing Jay.

"Your lucky my food getting cold." Jay said just after jumping at me causing me to flench.

"I aint lucky nothing." i mumbled so that Jay couldn't hear me. I just had to get the last word. After we ate we all just sat around talking until Jay dosed off. It was a little later in the morning, probably just after noon. With Jay sleep and Juelz in his playpen, Solo and i finally had some alone time.

"I can't believe I'm finally here. This is crazy!" Solo said starting off the conversation.

"Yes i know. And with you being here my and dad would really have to come out here now." i added.

"I know! Between the 2 of them..." she said laughing. "They are soooo...soooo..." she said trying to find the right word to say for them. "Hell i can't think of the word right now, but you know what i mean." after having had become somewhat frustrated.

"Yea...i do." i said laughing at her frustration.

"Shut up." Solo replied giving me a devious look. "Where's Jay? Is he still sleeping?" she said changing the course of the convo.

"Yea, for about an hour now. Why?" i asked a little curious.

"No reason. Just asking." she replied then came that awkward silence. "So are yal like together-together or are yal like togetherrrr?" she ask as if she's been wanting to ask for quite some time now.

"Well as of last night, we are together-together." i proudly said.

"You aint lying, the way yal two were at it last night. And it's about time." she said full of relief. "And the fact that i actually like him is like wow, cuz i don't like any of the guys you date."

"Thats because you don't know any of the guys i date." i sarcastically said.

"My point exactly!" she snapped playfully. "But for real though, he seems like a really cool guy. He offer's to help, paid for dinner the other night, and he also brought groceries....he's most definitely a keeper."

I chuckled at Solo. "Yea, but we will see. It's one thing being friends with someone and it's another thing to be in relationship with them." i argued.

"Yea you're right...but for yal to be friends this long should say something, right. I mean it aint like yal stayed friends for something, Lords knows the shit yal been through."

"Did you ju---" i was about to ask.

"Oops, sorry god. But you get what I'm saying."

"Yea i get you....---" i replied, but before we could continue on Juelz started crying and interrupted our conversation.

"I'll be back..." Solo replied in an exhausting tone. "I have to go be mommy." she jokingly said, but we all know she loves Juelz.

I stayed in the living room to watch some tv and catch up on my soaps, as Solo took Julez off to bathe him and get him ready for the day. Sometime later i was later joined by Jay who looked like a walking Zombie coming through the house. He made his way over to me and cuddle up next to me on the couch. He head was laying in my lap and his arms were around my waist. I started to think he was falling back to sleep because he laid there still for a min.

"How was you nap?" i asked stroking the back of Jays head as it laid in my lap.

"I slept good, until i woke up and saw that you weren't by me." he replied, almost to where i could almost barely hear him because his mouth was sort of pressed against my stomach.

"Aww...." i said smiling still stroking Jay's head. "And you better not be falling back to sleep." i said noticing him becoming awfully silent.

"Na...." he patiently replied. "Im just thinking about things thats all."

"Like what?" i asked interested to know.

It must have been something serious because Jay turned over in my lap and looked up at me with a hard look on his face. I kind of felt like we were in some type of therapy session, but in a more relaxed setting.

"Jay whats up, you look like its something serious." i implied with concern.

(Jay's input)
Being with Beyonce and around her friends and family, made me think of my life with my friends and family outside of B. The life i had before i met her. B, doesnt know this but i have a daughter. I never mentioned it to her because thats not the first thing i generally tell people when i'm just meeting them. I cant just have my daughter around anybody. But being here with Juelz made me think about Mileena and how i want to have my daughter with me and around me. I dont want to have to just keep visiting her when i have time. I want to be able to have both Mileena and Beyonce apart of me life together as a whole. And i know it may seem to soon to say this but i want us to establish a family. The only thing is, i just hope B is okay with it.

Jays does a deep sigh "Thats cuz it is." he said slowly lifting off of me. "Beyonce...." Jay spoke slowly and i just looked back at him with so much confusion in my eyes. "What if i told you i kind of sort of have a daughter." he said trying to mumble over his words so that i couldn't hear him but i heard every word.

It took a minute for me to process it  though but ohhh when i did.... "It's either you do or you don't, it aint no kind of in that!" i said sharply in the most calmest tone possible.

"Don't get mad." Jay had the nerve to say.

"Don't get mad?!" i asked rhetorically. "Shawn you can't be serious right now?"

"See thats how i know your mad, when you start calling me Shawn." he said sort of mocking me.

"No i call you that when shit get serious, and this is some serrrrrrrious shit....." i said and began laughing at the thought of my life being like a Jerry Springer episode. But seeing Jay's frustration made me ease  up a bit. And besides i technically cant get mad. It's not like he waited until later on down the line to tell me, it's better he told me now then waited later. "Jay I'm not mad...im really not, I'm just confused and trying to understand thats all." i added.

I could see Jay's attitude starts to shift back into a more soothing, calm mood. "I don't even know where to  began trying to explain because the shit is so fucked up." he said sitting back down and sat aside of him.

"Well just tell me in the best way that you know how...." i replied.

(Jay’s Input)

After sitting in the room for so long thinking about how Iwas going to tell Beyonce about how I might possibly have a child made me fallasleep.  I never told B this before as friends because the situation is sofucked up, I didn’t want anyone judging me telling me I was a dead beat dad.And I guess being around Juelz and interacting with him made me think of mylife if Mileena was in it.

I mean she’s apart of my life, but not as she should. And part of the reason being, aside from what i mentioned earlier is that I don’t know for sure if she’s actually really mines andthe only things that’s stopping me is finding out the results. See Milena’smother Marie, was a woman I started messing around with when  Stacey and I separated. Throughout that timeshe was there to feel that void. Marie and I ended because I tried to workthings out with Stacey, because at the time Stacey told me she was pregnant and soI wanted to try to work things out for the sake of the baby. But little did Iknow Marie was the one who was really pregnant.

After ending things, she cut off all contact with me, butreached out to me a month or two later telling me she found out she was pregnant. But becauseof Stacey, I couldn’t trust it, so I ignored her and that phone call. Little didI know Marie was born with Leukemia, but she never mentioned it too me nonewhile we were messing around. I guess she figured I would have treated herdifferent. Too make a long story short, she died a few days after Mileena’s 2nd birthday.  And the only how I found outwas because she left a letter to me saying how if anything ever was to happento her, she would hope  that I would bethe one to take care of Mileena.

For a while I felt real shitty about myself. I felt sohorrible as a person because this woman was suffering and I allowed myemotions to hinder any possible future I could of have had or atleast tried tohave with Marie. And thinking about Mileena growing up without her parents,especially if the results turned out to be that I wasn’t the father wouldtotally crush me. I also felt guilty for putting Marie through all thatshe went through and i feel that I owe it too her to take care of  her because if I didn’t then she would haveended up in foster care,  so I didn’twant to know the results. But after Seeing Mileena and looking into herbeautiful brown eyes, I just knew she was mine. And being that I'm with Beyonce now, I would want her to know that becauseI see B and I going for the long run.

“B….” I said nervously and hesitantly, looking up at herbeautiful face as she smiled down on me.

“Yes?” she replied but in an anxious tone.

(Bey’s input)

I tried my best to keep calm and stay relaxed so that Iwouldn’t make Jay feel uneasy about telling me whatever it is he had to tellme. But the tone in his voice made me realize is what something deep. So Itried my best to prepare for the worst. Jay turned to me  and began speaking. He was telling me so many things at once that i got confused and twisted up a bit but i put the story together. Then finally things registered.

"I just wish i would have just believed her." Jay said pitying his self after explaining things to me.

"Yea that is pretty messed up." I said not knowing what the hell to say, i was just still lost for words. "Im sorry...was i not suppose to say that." i replied after Jay gave me a death stare.

Jay ignored it and kept on talking " And it's not like i didnt try to reach out. At first when i got the call i was like ok, she's pregnant, ima be there. But after Stacey pulled that shit, thats when i lost all my trust and confidence in woman." Jay continued on. "I know i may not be her father biologically but I'm the closet thing she has ever had, after her mother dying and all. And i just need to be there for her. I know how it feels losing a parent, i lost my dad when i was just twelve." Jay went on to say sounding a bit emotional when he spoke about his dad.

"So...why havent you told me anything of this before?" i asked extremely curious to know.

"I don't know. I wanted to so bad but then I'm thinking about us and how much stress this can have on our relationship and not knowing if you would still accept me after something like that...i guess in a way i was just scared too." he went on to confess.

"First off i want to say that im sorry about your dad. And as far you noy being able to tell me i understand. But, however we haven't really had that structured of a relationship for things to try and break that down, And secondly its good you told me now instead of waiting, so that we could deal with this head on, and thirdly Jay, i honestly think thats very good of you to want to help and be there for her. It takes a real man to do that." i said getting him all buttered up.

"So you're still willing to stay with me even after something like this?" Jay asked.

"Hell, after all i  went through with your ass for the past 6 months..." i said playfully. "I guarantee you our asses when be walking down the isle...i say in about 10 years from now."

"10, why 10?" Jay asked amused-like. He was coming back around.

"Idk, it just sounded good in my sentence." i replied, with a laugh.

"Right. Right.." Jay replied back with a smile. Then Solo walked in interrupting our conversation.

"Well what are you 2 pea heads in here doing?" Solo walked in all loud and full of energy, with Juelz in her arms. She made her way over to the playpen to place Juelz in there.

Me and Jay both jumped a little because we were so into our conversation, that i had forgot about being at Solo's place and that she was even here. So when i heard her speak it startled me.

"Oh nothing just in here talking about some craziness...." Jay answered.

"That I'm pretty sure i don't want to know anything about, but it look deep by the way you 2 are looking right now." she replied.

"Man i wish i could tell you that it wasn't...." Jay said very plain-like. No emotion what so ever.

"And I'm still gonna pass, i got my own problems all ready i don't need anymore." she went on to say playfully.

"I hear you." Jay said back.

After that we carried on with our day. All going to the park to let Juelz swing on the swing being that thats all he could do, but by the time he's able to walk he'll be a pro at it. But overall i enjoyed my time with my sister and my nephew, and most importantly Jay hit it off well with everyone. And I'm glad everyone was able to get to know Jay so that i wouldnt have to have many introductions of him. We rolled back to Manhattan later on that night. But the conversation to there and when we got there was still about Jay technically having a daughter. All i could do was picture the girl and all that she was feeling and going through. I mean her life must have been pretty rough. I couldnt help but think about it.

"Jay..." i said as we made our way off the elevator. I just felt i couldn't hold it in much longer. Even though we've been talking about it all day. But still. "I...I wanna meet your daughter." i said nervously. I didnt know how Jay was going to feel about it.

"Sure..." he responded quicker then i thought. "I mean i don't see why not."

"So your not bother by the situation at all?" i asked.

"Not really..." he said as he began to open his door and we made our way in. "I was at first because i didnt know how you were going to react, but being that your going to be apart of my life i hope for quite some time, then i think it would be a good idea. I just can't have my daughter around anybody."

I smiled happily and was feeling so relieved. I just hope his daughter is so much accepting about the situation as i am. I mean I'm not all gun-ho for being a step mom and all but i think it could be a good experience.

"So how does she look? Is she black, mixed, is sh---" i said beginning to ramble on out of curiosity and excitement.

"Woahhhh now..." Jay said laughing. "Take it easy. You'll be able too meet here soon and you can see all that for yourself."

"Argh!...ok." i said in a bit of disappointment.

"I swear...." Jay said giving me a sweet short peck on the lips to butter me up. "we're only a day into our relationship and already I'm feeling like I'm not deserving of you."

I kissed him back to let him know i appreciate what he said. "And your not.." i teased but he didnt take my teasing too well. "...Im kidding. You know we wouldnt even be at this point with each other if that was the case."

"Yea you're right..." Jay said hugging on to me loosely. "So are you gonna kick it here or are you heading back to your place."

"Jay you do know i only stay right up the hall. We're the only people on this whole floor for christ sakes." i answered.

Jay laughing. "I know, i know but its just i wanted to know where it was i was gonna be laying next to you tonight." Jay said very charming and smooth-like.

"Well we're already here, comfortable in your place so i don't see why we would have to go to my place. And like i said I'm only right down the hall vs right up the street and around the corner. So it aint no thing."

"It aint no thing huh?" Jay seductively said pulling me in close. Then  we shared in a kiss, that led to a long kiss, that led to a passionate kiss, but was interrupted by Solo when she called to confirm that we made it. After the mood was killed, i went along and showered then slipped into one of Jay's tshirt and big ass pair of boxers. And set in bed waiting for him to finish showering so that we could go to bed. But his ass took too long so i dosed off. After taking in some extreme news and a long drive back too Manhattan, i was tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired and sleep was much needed.

Chp 13

It was our last little night in BK. Solo, myself, and Jay had all made plans to go out but Juelz out of nowhere had got sick so Solo decided to stay. Everyone else left earlier in the day because they all had things they had to do. Being that i didnt want to just leave my sister hanging i recommended that we do something at the house but she insisted that we go out and being that i was already dressed, i just went on ahead with my night.

Shortly after leaving Solo's we arrived at 68 Jay St Bar. I picked with Jay, on our way in, about us going to a bar pretty much named after him. 68 was also the year before Jay was born, which i found ironic, especially with him being from Brooklyn and all. Jay went on to joke about him not owning the club but playfully expressed how he should thought. Anywho we got into the bar, finding us a nice spot the sit and so our night started.

It was a nice little bar, cozy, intimate, fun, but suitable. They had the old school boom box where you had to insert money and you choose the songs you wanted to hear. We just so happen to come on  karoke night, which made the night so much more interesting. We sate long enough to knock a few drinks back and get a few laughs in.

"So are you going to sing?" Jay asked sparking off another conversation, chugging down his fourth beer.

"Is that your fourth beer?" i shot at Jay after realizing this man took down four beers, 3 tequilia's, 2 long island, some shots we took, and im pretty sure another drink or two and was still maintaining. While i had just about 2 beers and had started on my third, 2 long island, a couple shots of henny, and a martini. And i know your not suppose to mix liquor but the way that i was feeling was too good to let go.

"Yeeeaa...why?" Jay responded.

"No reason. I just cant beilieve your not on the verge of passing out." i joked.

"Im a full grown man..." Jay said with sternness. "I do this."

"Whatever..." i said rolling my eyes at his playful arrogance.

"So you never answered my question." Jay continued.

"Your question about what?" i said lost as i was focusing my attention on how good these wings were.

"About you going on stage?"

"Shit NO." i exclaimed. "Thats totally out of the question. And besides i'm shy."

"Well you dont seem very shy too me." he replied.

"Trussst me...I am. I'm just not good with getting up infront of a big crowsd of people. Thats all." I said trying to talk my way out of it.

"But you dont have to sing to them, sing to me." Jay so smoothly said.

"uhmm, i dont know." i said giving it some thought.

"I dont see why not...your just having fun and besides most of these people in here are drunk, so who's really going to be paying attention." Jay said trying to make me feel better.

"See...whats the point then if nobody's going to be paying attention?" i asked as if i were about to do it.

"But i thought thats what you wanted anyways?" he asked back.

"hmp!" i sighed. Jay wasnt taking any of my answered into consideration and i knew he would have just kept pressing the issue until i did so or got annoyed with him so to avoid any drama i just went on and did it. "ughgh!...Fiiiiine." i whined. "But ima need another shot though."

After taking my shot, i slowly hauled my ass on stage, with Jay watching and smiling from a ways. Everything was cool until everybody somewhat stopped what they were doing to ficus their attention on me. If i wasnt nervous before then i most definielty was now. Even after the music started playing i still didnt start right away until i saw Jay in the crowded yelling out and just pretty much showing his support. That made me feel really good, so good to the point where i worked my ass from off that stage and into the crowd and interacting with people. It was one guy who was practically fondling over me, now maybe i was just super drunk and was feeling myself, but i focused the rest of my energy and song on him.

In the midst of me singing i got so carried away and lost into the song and forgot all about Jay and why it was i was even singing in the first place. I just knew i was having so much fun. I rushed back to the table just after finishing my song, only to find Jay in some type of mood. I knew it had too do with me singing and the way i was acting with that guy and i wouldnt blame him for feeling the way he does. 

                                      

I tried to keep cool about things and play like i didnt even notice Jays attitude change because i wanted to see how mad he actually was. "Soooo, how'd did i do?" i asked with forecful excitment.

"You did alright..." Jay responded as if he could care less.

"Just alright?" i aksed trying to retain any type of thrill or enthusiasm i have left, but seeing Jay like this was just making things harder. He didnt reply he just finished up on his fifth beer, having ordered one through the middle of my little performance.

"You ready to go?" Jay asked snootily.

"Yea i guess...it seems i have no choice." i said beginning to murmur, not wanting to start an argument or whatever.

Jay then called for a waiter to pay the bill, then after that we grabbed our things and left. Getting outside of the bar, it was like Jay was trying not to walk near me. Everytime i got close to him he just sped up, which was pissing me off because i was barely walking after having all that liquor kicked in.

"Can you wait up?" i shouted after becoming fed up because he decided to walk almost a whole block in front of me. But Jay ignored me and kept on only walking a few more feet to the car. Jay waited in the car until i finally walked up, but when i did  i had established an attitude. "OK!" i said getting in the car. ""We are now going anywhere until we get this shit resolved cuz i cant put up with this the rest of the night."

"Whats there too resolve?" Jay asked being funny which annoyed the hell out of me. I mean i understood why Jay was acting like this but let's be serious i ended right back in the car with Jay so why is he mad?!

"Well for one, lets start with the fact we left earlier then we expected, you didnt want to walk with me, and now you sitting here giving me attitude. If your gonna be mad at me, atleast acknowledge it and tell me what i did to upset you si we get go ahead and get over it, cuz i dont got time to be dealing with people's bitchiness." i snapped.

"Oh so now im a bitch?" Jay asked taking offense to what i said.

"Thats not what i meant." i said frustratedly. 

(Jay's input)

It frustrated me that Beyonce was not getting at all why i was even mad. And i had every right to be. Let things would have been the other way around, and my ass probably would have been walking back to Solo's, even though i was the one driving. At the end of the day its a matter of respect and i felt completely disrespected.

"Well tell me what you mean, cuz evidently i dont know." he snapped right back.

"How about you tell me why your mad?" i pretty much demanded. 

"Dont act like you dont know...because you do thats why you came back to the table trying to be all nice." he added.

"Ok i understand you being mad but damn get real, you act like i just flat out intentionally just disrespected you or something. When thats not even the case."

But Jay wasnt trying to hear it, he just kept wanting to argue but i wasnt about to argue. I just let him go on until he realized how stupid he was being. The whole care ride to Solo's house was quiet and long. But the quietness gave me time to think and what i had thought was that Jay and I dont need to be fighting on our second day of being togther, i mean this was not good. Jay was showing me a side of him i didnt see before, but i was going to suck it up and just be the one to apologize. We're both drunk and i dont want neither one of us saying something that we're just going to regret in the morning.

"Jay..." i said breaking the silence as we approached Solo's house. I was not trying to come back mad at one another. I wanted to finish our weekend the way it started which was fun and fresh.

"Yea" he replied.

"Im sorry..." i began to apologize "If you felt disrespected, that was not my intentions. I was just having fun and got caught up in the song."

Jay letting out a sigh "I know and im sorry for being an ass about it, I just dont like to see my girl interacting with guys like that, period. I dont care if it's playing or not. Friend or whatever, i just dont like it."

"Ok i can accept that but only if you work on you attitude as well. I didnt like how when you were mad. You tried to act as if you werent when you really were then took you frustrations out on me. All im saying is, if that next time you are feeling some type of way just come out and tell me, dont hold back and not say anything." i added.

"I can do that..." he replied, as we were now pulling up at Solo's house.

"Im glad we did leave.." i said after letting out a yarn. "Because i'm getting a little tired." 

"Yea, me too." Jay said putting the car in park and cutting it off as we got out, making our way into the house. Solo gave me a set of keys for emergency purposes so she wasnt there to greet us at the door. In fact she was probably sleep, being that it was after one.

After carrying me into the house, I made Jay lay me on the couch. I had no strength to make it to the room. But Jay on the otherhand, however did. "Sooo yourrr not gonna sleep with me?" i asked peeking over the couch as Jay made his way into the room.

"Wellll....." Jay said turning back around not knowing what to say. And because it was dark it was hard to make out if Jay had indeed turned around to come in lay with me or what. And the silence he gave did not make things better. But it wasnt until i felt his huge strong arms scoop me up, as he postioned his self on the couch.

I laid there for a while trying to go to sleep. But i just couldnt. I mean i felt tired in all but i guess my body wasnt ready to shut down.  I laid there bored for about another 15 more mins. Once i realized that i was going to be up. I decided to see if Jay was up so that maybe he could keep me company. "Jayyyy...." i whispered a few times until he responded.

"Whats up?" he said kind of tiredly.

"Are you sleeping?"

"Not really." he responded. After confirming that Jay was up, i turned over towards him but facing him. We laid nearly eye to eye, but i was more so up under Jay. We stared at each other for a few moments until Jay started speaking again. "Is everything ok?" he asked sort of concerned.

"Yea...i just cant sleep thats all." When i said that, i felt Jay pull me closer in towards him. i guess assuming that i needed comfort or something, but it wasnt necessarily like that. "You smell like alcohol." i teased after catching a whiff of Jay's odor being that my nose was dang near pressed against his neck. Jay just chuckled in amusement. "Jay..." i said again, regaining his attention.

"Your just not gonna let me sleep?" Jay playfully said.

"Uh-un...because i'm bored and if you go to sleep, im gonna be lonely."

"Lonely how, when im holding you in my arms." Jay asked, tickled by what i said.

"I dont know..." i said lightly giggling. "I just know i dont want you to go to sleep."

(Jays input)

Laying next to Beyonce felt so good to me. I hate that i got so mad at her earlier and kind of ruined our night, i knew she didnt mean anything  by it, but its just the principal of things. And being with her now, all i can seem to think about is that little show she gave earlier, which had me feeling some type of way. So many thoughts and images popped in my head of Beyonce, that a sexual feeling just sort of took over. I didnt want to be afraid with Beyonce no more. I didnt want to hold back my emotions or feelings with B. I want her to feel everything that i was feeling. 

(Bey's input)

Now leave it to Jay to take what i said and use it as a sexual statement. And maybe i was feeling it too. But i didnt mind though because what happened in these next few minutes, was enough to keep me to stay up. And feeling the way that i was feeling, i felt like i was on my level and Jay was about to take me higher.

Jay's quietness let me know that he was up to something. I sure was right too because all of a sudden out of nowhere, i felt Jay began to caress my body softly and playing off my reaction he began to kiss me all over my face, until he found my lips and we shared in a long, deep, passionate kiss. That kiss sent all types of signals to my body, but i couldnt help but laugh throughout the whole thing.

"Am i making you nervous or something?" Jay said stopping to speak.

"No it's not that, its..its.." i said nervously. "Its just it's been a while."

"Oh." Jay replied. "Well we dont have too if you dont want too?" he suggested.

"It's not that i dont.." i abruptly said. "I'm just saying go a little easy thats all." i playfully said, but was really serious.

"Ok." Jay said back and smiled.

My body shook as Jay's hands trailed up my legs to take off my panty holes. Once he got them off, he pulled me closer towards him after having just whipped his shit out, and im not surprised at all to see that Jay was packing.

"You think you can handle this?" Jay asked.

"I'm not sure but we will see...." i answered.

Right after i answered Jay was making his way in, his penetration was a little strong, that i push away and pulled back from him.

"hm..why you running?" Jay asked, probably with a smirk on his face.

"Im not..i'm just.." i said not able to think of anything to say.

Jay leaned in hesitantly too kiss me, but when he did i felt a sense of comfort with him putting my back body back at ease.. "Just come back down...i promise to take it gentle." He said guiding me.

And in that moment i believed Jay, and i knew he meant what he said. Jay and I tried again and this time i wasnt going to stop anything. My nerves and doubts washed away as pleasure and pain took over my body, good pain though. And i didnt care that Jay and I were having drunk sex because honestly i was happy it was finally happening. Jay and I have known each other for a while so it wasnt like he was just a stranger or anything. I knew just enough about Jay to take it to the next level. We were carrying on for a nice little while until i became uncomfortable.

"...Jayy...Jayy..." i said trying to capture his attention being that he was all in. 

"Whats up?" he finally answered still in motion. 

"Hold up for a min..." i said gasping for air. " I gotta stop, these pillows are starting to bother me." i replied. Jay waited patiently why i moved the pillows around and out the way. "Ok, now get up." i demanded.

"Get up?" Jay asked with a confused look on his face.

"Yeaaa..." i said slowly pushing him off. Jay must have thought i was asking him to stop or something, but that wasnt the case. It was too good to stop. "You had me on my back for a min...i need to stretch it out or something." i said then Jay slowly rose up off of me, sitting back against the couch. He had a look of disappointment on his face. But that all went away when i climbed my pretty ass on top of Jay. "No need to look to sad.." i playfully said. "I wasnt going anywhere." i said to Jay, beginning to kiss on him. Jay just responded in an enlightening smile.

From there i went on to rock Jay's world. I had him saying shit, he probably didnt even he was saying. And after a while Jay and I ended up on the floor, but Jay was moving so quick that when i looked up, the ceiling seem so far away. Jay somehow manage to get me on all fours, as he worked me from behind. Truth be told, this was my favorite position. And the shit Jay was doing was making me love it even more. I smiled proudly when i heard him blurt out how wet my puss-puss was. I was also slightly embarrassed because Jay talking to me while having sex is very weird to me. I dont like to talk, i be too focused, so it was funny to me in a way.

Jay and i ended restless on the floor, i grabbed a blanket from off the couch to cover us up. We laid in silence for a minute until i started laughing, thinking about Jay and I having sex all over Solo's living room and thinking about what shell say to us.

"Whats so funny?" Jay asked seeming like he wanted to laugh to.

"Nothing..." i said giggling. "Im just thinking about Solo and whats she's going to say."

"You think she heard us?" Jay asked with humor. "Im pretty sure she heard you." he went on to tease.

"Hush up..." i said bashfully, hitting Jay on the chest.

"Jayyy...Jaaaaayy....Oh Jayyy!" he teased.

"Shhhhhh....." i said placing my hand over mouth. "Do you want her to wake up?" Jay just chuckled real hard at me, causing me to laugh too.

"Instead of talking and bumping your gums..you could be doing something else." i implied.

I felt Jay look down at me, then his lips pressed against mines, and before i knew it i was on my back. He kissed me aggressively as he snatched the covers off, revealing us. His mouth moved from my lips as they made there way to my neck them met my breast where Jay made nice with the girls. Jay then made his way down to the station....when out of nowhere.

"WHAT THE HELL?" Solo said standing from behind the couch. Instantly Jay jumped up, but me i stayed on the floor laughing hysterically. I swear when your drunk and shit like this happens, it just becomes funny. And the fact that i was just speaking about something like this happening made it that much more funnier. "I knew i was hearing something, but dammmn nothing like this." she said laughing as she made her way to sit down. Really Lo, i thought.

I grabbed the blanket from off to the side, while Jay continued to put on his clothes. "Why are you even up? It's 3 in the morning." i asked after i finally stopped laughing.

"Well i do have a 6 month old son who demands to be fed at any time of the day." she replied, showing me the bottle she must have just made. "I came down here the first time and i thought you too were sleep, but i heard yal talking when i was in the kitchen and when i came out, yal two fools were about to go another round on my damn living room floor." she said amused by it.

"Aw shit!" Jay chuckled out loud. 

"I see i will never send you two out alone again." Solo teased. "I mean i'm all for drunk sex, hell im all for yal even having sex cuz it's about time...but on my floor, really?" she said laughing.

"I tried to tell here Solo...but she was just too aggressive, i was scared." Jay said sarcastically.

"Yea. yea, yea..." she said beginning to get up. "I'm going back upstairs...cuz she aint got time for yal and she has a baby who's going to be getting up in a few hours and she's going back to bed, so he and she better be a little quieter..because if i have to come back...ohhhh it aint gonna be pretty."

"Damn!" i responded with a laugh. "Ok she..." i teased to Solo. "Good night."

"You heard what she said now." Jay said to me be funny.

"Shut up, stupid."

"Night fools." Solo said then went back up stairs.

After being interrupted by Solo Jay and I didnt even want to risk it anymore. We put back on our things, then made our way on the couch to lay down. After being tucked away and laughing some more about Solo, we soon dosed off, bringing an end to our night.

THANKS FOR READING HOPE YOU ENJOYED. BE SURE TO COMMENT. I APOLOGIZE ABOUT THE LONG WAIT, I TRY MY BEST TO KEEP A DAILY UPDATE. BUT I APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT YAL STICK WITH ME. ANYWHO BE ON THE LOOKOUT FOR ANOTHER UPDATE...ON THAT NOTE....."Catch ya later."