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.......meanwhile (Kelly's POV)

I was laying in bed, when i was woken up by Calvin's laughter.  Then when i actually woke up i realized he was on the phone so i pretended to be sleep and ear hustle a little bit. I wanted to make sure he was talking to no chick. I couldn't really make out what he was saying because he was pretty much laughing the whole time then would say shit like, Word, Straight, and some other one word answers, but the thing that kept me listening was when i heard him mention the name Eva. Who the fuck was she, i thought.

The name stood out to me, but i don't know why, because i don't even know an Eva. And it had me questioning how Calvin knew her. I waited until he was well off the phone before i pretended to wake up. I rolled over all cutesy  and saw him standing near the window.

"Did i wake you?" he asked, turning back to look at me. I guess hearing me rumble through the sheets.

"No. I was already getting up anyway." i answered.

"Oh okay." he simply replied.

"Sooo...who was that you were talking too on  the phone." i said trying to be subtle. 

"Why you wanna know all that babe?" he said with a smirk on his face, as if i just said something funny.

"Well you were laughing awful loud and crazy and i was just curious as too know who the hell had you laughing like that?" i quickly answered.

"Oh...it was no body but my home boy..." he said beginning to snicker again. "telling me how my other home boy called him tripping out, about his girl messing around on him, but the funny thing about is that we all then ran through her but he went ahead and cuffed the.......broad, so that was stupid on him." he said spilling it all.

"So who was the girl?" i asked, seeing if he would tell me.

"Whats with all the questions?" he shot back.

"Well i just wanted to see if i knew her, thats all."

"Well you probably do...shit half of New York do and i aint just talking about the city." he replied in more laughter.

"So whats her namer?" i asked again this time determined to get an answer.

"....Eva." he slowly answered.

"Oh no i don't know her..." i replied, then quickly got out of bed to use the bathroom to avoid him becoming suspicious, but really to call Bey because we were suppose to be meeting up for brunch. But she didn't answer, so i crawled back into bed for about another 30 mins. Which was when Bey finally called me back and told me she was going to be late, so we had to switch it to lunch time, which was fine because i could use a little more sleep time.

*Bey's POV*

My mind was all over the place. I couldn't believe the shit i just saw. That damn whore ass of a girlfriend was trying to fuck Jay over. I was just leaving from having to check on something at the store and i was heading back home to get ready for brunch with Kelly when i saw little miss thang, walking up the blvd with some guy. I was sitting at a red light across from them, when i saw some chick with platinum brown hair, which is what caught my attention, but what made me really look was because i thought she was a tranny or something. 

Well i ended up following them as they walked up the street but i had to park and do it, because i was causing traffic from trying to stay on pace with them. I took a few pictures and even caught one of them kissing. And i couldn't have been more happy because i knew something was up about this girl and now i have the proof. But now that i have the evidence I'm really not sure what i should do with it.

After giving it much thought, i decided to confront this chick. This bitch must have been asking for an ass whooping, i mean because first she show's up at my job on some bullshit, and then she's trying to fuck over Jay. I expected the girl to be on some slick shit, but nothing like this. And i know Jay is going to be devastated when he finds out because he really thought highly of this girl. When i walked up to her you could have sworn that she saw a ghost. Yea bitch you were busted.

"So Evey....." i said being funny. "You talked to Jay lately, well as you would call him...Shawn?!" i said with a smirk on my face.

"Baby...who is this?" the guy asked confused "And what is she talking about? And who's Evey?" he asked causing me to laugh at how stupid he was. 

"Oh she didn't tell you..." i said speaking before she could even get a chance to talk. "She's dating a very good, dear friend of mine....I believe for the past 4 months now, am I right Evey?" I was loving every minute of this.

"It's nothing baby...." shad said letting out a deep sigh. She didn't have so much attitude today.  "Baby can you excuse us?" she tried asking.

"What do you mean it's nothing?" he said becoming all upset. "And who is this Shawn guy, you've been supposedly dating for 4 months, woman we've been together for almost 3 years!" he said moving away from her.

"Anthony, baby, please it's nothing, we can talk about this later." she said trying to grab ahold of him as he moved away. She was trying her best to stay calm.

"Na man.....get away from me." he said snatching away from her. "I want you and your shit out of my house!" he said as he stormed off up the street. Leaving her there.

"How does it feel to be busted?!" i asked grinning. But she didn't say anything. "You know what Evey ima give you 3 choices..." i said moving closer to her. "You can One, either just end things with Jay now on a different account, or you can two, tell Jay yourself, and hope he doesnt dumps your sorry ass, Or choice 3.." i said snickering. "I could send these here photos of you and Anthony to Jay right now" i said holding my phone up with the pictures showing "And have him decide whats he wants to do for himself."

"You're a bitch, you know that." she finally said, giving me some type of attitude.

"And you're a HOE!" i snapped back. "So what's it gonna be hun..." i said referring to the choices "But you might want to call, being that he is out of town and want be back for another 3 days, or i'll even give you this, tell him in person when he comes back. It's a bit tacky when you break up over the phone." i implied.

"Whatever!" she mumbled, just before walking off.

And i walked back to my car feeling both proud and happy. Good riddens to that bitch and Hasta la vista to you bitch. I rushed back home to get ready so that i could meet up with Kelly for lunch, i couldnt wait to til her the news. I calld Kelly to let her know that i would be leaving out soon, because she most of the time is late. But me i had a legitimate excuse for why i was left. And once i was done getting ready i headed out the door, driving my fastest to get to Kelly to tell her what i just saw.

When i got to the restaurant it was no sign of Kelly. Which i don't get because i called her 15 mins before i left the house. I started to call when in she same speed walking through the restaurant. Looking like she was in some type of walk-a-thon the way she was moving.

"You aint never on time." i teased.

"Well i would have been on time but i got caught up with Calvin and girl you know how that goes." she replied cheesing.

"Spare me the details." i replied, after getting up to hug her.

"So what's been going? Why did you cancel on brunch?" Kelly asked, sitting down, and getting comfortable.

"Girllllll...." i said with so much thrill. "You would have never guessed who i seen this morning tonguing down some dude on the streets."

"Who?!" Kelly asked, eager to know.

"E-VA.....Jay's girlfriend, well ex girl friend now."

"Hold up, did you just say Eva?" Kelly asked me.

"Yea, why?" i said giving her a confused look.

"Awwww shit....." Kelly said beginning to laugh hysterically then finally calming down enough to tell me why. "This morning when i woke up, i over heard Calvin on the phone talking to his home boy about her, well his boy was actually telling Calvin but you know what i mean."

My eyes grew big when Kelly told me that Calvin was speaking about Eva, because how did he know her. "How does Calvin know her." i asked, super curious.

"Well apparently little Miss Eva gets around, and she got around with Calvin and all of his boys, but one of them went ahead and claimed her, and but she's been fucking over him." Kelly went on.

"Is his name Anthony?" i asked just to see.

"Im not sure, i didn't catch all that." she replied. "So are you going to tell Jay."

"See thats the thing, i left that up too her to decide. And well if she doesnt, then i got the pics and i'll just send them too him." i answered.

"Omg you do?" Kelly said with an excited look on her face. "Let me see."

I began showing Kelly the pics but before we could even pick back up on our conversation the waitress had already come over.

"What can i get for you today and what can i start you off with too drink." The woman asked.

Of course Kelly ordered first "Hmmm, I'll have the chicken fettucini, with a caesar salad, and a baked potato.....Oh and for a drink, can i have a long island ice tea."

"You sure can and what can i get for you miss?" the woman asked.

"I wil haaaaaave.....you baked chicken with salted onions, a caesar salad, and i would also like to try your shrimp pasta." i said.

"And what can i get you too drink?" she asked marking on her paper.

"Oh another long island." i replied.

"Ooookay." she said grabbing our menus "I have your drinks ready for you in just a second and it's going to be a minute on your food, alright?"

"Yea thats fine." i answered.

"Is there any chance we can get some bread, because we never got any." Kelly added.

"I apologize about that m'am...i also have that ready for you in a moment too. Is there anything?"

"No that will be all.....Thank Yooooou."

"No problem and i'll be right back with you bread and drinks." she said with a smile and walked off.

After the waiter left, Kelly and I picked back up with what we were talking about. We talked more about the whole situation with Evil. Then picked up on other things like her and Calvin, and work, and what ever else came to our minds. Overall we had a good lunch and a good time. Although most of it was spent bashing jumanji, she deserved it.

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It seemed like forever until i saw Jay again. And i wish i didn't have too but in a way i'm glad i did.

I was doing last minute prep and alterations, as the timing until showtime was counting down. Then out of nowhere Jay came strolling along, heading towards my direction. I tried my hardest to put on a poker face because i didn't know how he was going to react or what he was going to say. And the crazy thing about it, is that i haven't seen Eva all night. I was wondering if she was even going to show up. And the fact that all 3 of us could possibly be under the same roof was really tripping me out. I was expecting Jay to be all in a funk or atleast down or hurt. But that smile on his face let me know that he was wasn't, so i was confused.

"What up, what up, what up?" Jay said joyfully as he approached me giving me a hug. "Second time around huh?" being that this was my second time around being in fashion week.

"Yup..." i said happily "And it's all because of you, letting me be apart of last year's show. So pretty much i got you to thank." I was trying to match Jay's happiness, in my head i was thinking wow he is handling this extremely well.

"Na, i just opened the doors, but it was you who made your way in. I can't take all the credit." he said showing off his modest side.

"We're like a team, with your connects and your knowledge and my skills and talent, we're unstoppable." i commented.

"Like Bonnie and Clyde..." Jay proudly mentioned.

"Yea but just with out the banking robbing and going to jail because we all know i wouldn't last one day." i said making a joke about myself.

Jay laughing "You aint lying." he teased.

And just as things were going good, out of nowhere the devil in a dress walked up. And i swear i could have snatched the life out of her. She had to nerve to first show her face here and for two the ordescity to come over to speak to Jay. I was all the way lost.

"Baaabe....What are you doing back here?" the girl said walking up from out of no where. Hearing her voice instantly annoyed me. Her and Jay shared in a short kiss.

Did she just call him babe and did they just kiss? i asked to myself.

"I came back here to wish you luck and catch a few words with Beyonce." Jay responded.

"Oh." she said giving me some crazy ass look.

"So Evey..." i started, i figured that she must haven't told Jay then. Well i was about too. "How's Anthony?" i asked, watching Jay to see how he react.

"Anthony? Who's Anthony?" Jay said in a not so happy tone.

"Yea Evey, who's Anthony?" i egged on.

"Why do you keep calling her Evey?" Jay asked, but i ignored him. I was waiting on Evil to respond.

"Look, lets not do this here ok?" she said, once again being caught up.

"Let's not do what?" Jay asked looking back in forth between the both of us. "Apparently yal have been talking long enough, so lets speak now." Jay demanded.

"Shawn, please..... now is really not the time or the place for this." she pleaded.

"Na, fuck that. I wanna know right now what the fuck is going on." Jay's voice grew more serious.

"Well evidently she was never going to tell you..." i said finally speaking up. "So i guess i will." I stepping closer to Jay. "She has a boyfriend...named Anthony, who's she been with for the past 3 years." I said showing Jay the pictures.

I watched Jay as his face frowned up. He became so mad. "Why didn't you tell me this sooner?" he asked me.

"Because i thought that she would tell you, and you were out of town, and i didn't want to tell you over the phone, i wanted to atleast tell you in person." I replied.

Jay turned away from me and focus his attention on Eva. "Did any of it mean anything to you or was it all a lie." he asked in the most hurt felt tone.

"Yesss, but i wasn't happy with Anthony. Thats day that Bey saw us we were discussing going on a break." she said trying to explain, but Jay wasn't hearing it.

"BULLSHIT!" he snapped. "And too think, i was going to let you move in with me. Whatever we had, it's officially over, I'm done." Jay replied, just before walking off.

"But Sha---"

"Save it." he replied, then stormed off.

I followed right after Jay, but by the time i hit the door he had already hopped in the car and drove off. And part of the reason i followed after him was because I really just needed to get away, having that bitch stand in front of my face had me about ready to pounce on the girl. So i just walked away. I also wanted to check on Jay but i couldn't leave the show. I tried contacting him after, but he wasn't responding so i just left it alone. I was giving him his space, which was what he needed to clear his my and his hand. And once he was in a good space to talk then i would be right here waiting.
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A couple days have past and i still haven't seen Jay nor talked too him. But i was for sure he would have called by now. I left that up to him to make contact, i didn't want to be running after him all the time, thats partly the reason why he and I keep getting caught up with these little on/off feelings we have. Don't get me wrong, i want to be there for Jay, as a friend should, but thinking about Emilio and my relationship with him I just can't put myself into that type of predicament. However, i didn't finally receive a text from Jay this morning asking if we could talk, but because Emilio i wasn't able to attend to him right away.  And by the time Emilio left and i called Jay to check with him so we could talk, he didn't respond. And when i went to his apartment he wasn't there, so i went on with my day, hoping atleast he would call back or something.

....Its been a while since i had my nails done, and my cuticles were extremely bad. So i spent my day getting pampered, having got a mani-pedi. Those massaging chairs and the way they massage your feet were so relaxing. After that I was on my way to lunch. After about an hour at the nail salon, i worked myself up a little appetite. I think it was from the constant vibration from the massage. Or maybe just the fact that the thought of a big juicy corn beef sandwich crossed my mind and i just had to had of had one. In the midst of me leaving and heading off to the Beef Bistro place, i decided to call up Kelly and check up with her.

"Hey, Hey, Hey..." i said in my most happy voice.

"Hey, Hey, Hey.....!" Kelly said back with even more enthusiasm.

"What are you up too?" i giggled.

"Girl nothing.....out doing a little shopping." she replied.

"Oh, where at maybe i'll stop by." i asked.

"Girl I'm all the way in EastManhattan, i highly doubt you come over here." she replied.

"Yea you're right, traffic gets bad around this time." I said with a laugh.

"You aint lying." she said back. "So what are you up too?" she asked. But i didn't hear her because my line had began to beep. I had received a text from Jay.

R: Beyonce?

     received from Jay 2:32pm

But being that i was both driving and already on the phone i didn't text back right away.

"Bey do you hear me?" Kelly asked.

"Oh yea...my bad. I had dropped my phone." i said feeling the need to lie for some reason.

"But yea, as i was saying..." Kelly stated "What are you up too?" she asked again.

"Nothing, just leaving the nail shop, about to go---" I got interrupted by Jay calling, this time. But i ignored him to finish up my conversation with Kelly. "About to go get me something to eat." i said.

"Ohh what you about to get?" she said, out of nowhere becoming excited. This girl gets too happy hearing about food.

"Beef Bistro." i replied.

"Aw man, i want some. Can you bring me one on your way back. I should be back on that side of town by then."

"Yea, I will." i said going to check my phone after receiving yet another text from Jay.

R: So you ignoring me huh?

      received from Jay 2:40pm

"Yea i can..but Kel let me call you back." i said, so that i could call Jay back so that he could stop being a pest.

"Alright, and you better not forget my corn beef." she said just before i hung up.

And the minute i hung up and before i could even hit the call button, to call Jay back, he started calling again.

"You know, you real starting to become a bug a boo." i joked as i answered the phone.

"You better had picked up, i was beginning to think you were avoiding me." he replied, but not in a serious matter. He actually sounded like he was in a good mood.

"Well i see somebody's in a good mood." i replied in good form.

"Yea well, you know... they can't keep a real nigga down." he said being all modest.

I chuckled at Jay seriousness when he said that. "Boy you are silly.... what are you doing?" i asked changing the up the convo.

"The same thing your doing." he simply responded.

"And how do you know what I'm doing?" i asked, playing into Jays sarcasm.

"Good question..huh." he replied, leaving me a little perplexed. Then all of a sudden i came to a red light and the convo went dead for a minute. I just heard Jay mumbling to himself, but what he was saying sounded familiar. He was saying a bunch of letters and numbers, and when caught on to those letters and numbers being my license plate, i turned around quickly in my seat to see Jay in a big black truck behind me.

"Are you stalking me?" i asked a bit tickled by it and some how weirded out, but in a good way.

"Took you long enough to catch on." he teased. ''But no I'm not, i saw you coming out of the nail salon on 44ht, but i wasnt sure if it was you, until a few minutes ago." he added. "So let me guess, your license plate is you initials and your birthday right?" he went to asked.

"Wow...your good." I sarcastically complimented. Ignoring the fact that he said he followed me from the nail salon.

"Well you know what they say." he replied in the same sense of humor. "Aye pull over right here." Jay said, as the light turned green.

"Why? I don't think i should with you stalking me and all." i teased.

"Oh you got jokes?" Jay chuckled. "But for real though, pull over right here?" he asked again. "And i'll even throw in a  please." he added.

"Fine...." i playfully sighed. And pulled over to the side as Jay pulled and parked right in front of me.

I sat and waited in the car all of 5 minutes until Jay got out. But instead of getting out, i rolled down my window as Jay walked on up on the car.

"So your not going to get out?" he asked.

"Nope, you might try to do something to me stalker." i kept on.

Jay laughing "You better stop calling me a stalker."

"Or what?" I asked, with a smirk on my face.

"Get out the car and find out." Jay respond trying to open my door, but it was locked. "Unlock the door?" Jay said as he continued to tug.

"I am not!" i continued to rebel, so thats when Jay decided to take matters into his own hand.

Jay stuck his arm through the window and we fought over the lock. He was trying to block it and i was trying to keep it locked. I had to take off my seat belt to maneuver, because Jay kept trying to hold me and pin my arms down. Once one of my arms were free again, i rolled Jay's arm up in the window and left it like that for a minute. Mostly because i was laughing to hard at his face and emotions. He was hollering out like a little girl. I just had too take pictures.

"You better roll this window down." Jay demanded.

"Fuck no. So you can beat my ass when i let it down, i don't think so." i said still in laughter.

"Come on, I'm not gonna do anything....i promise." he said giving me a little puppy dog look.

"How do i know that?" i asked.

"What you don't trust me?" he asked back.

"Hel No!" i replied with more laughter.

And after a few more minutes of constant begging and complaining, i reluctantly rolled the window down. But if would have know this man was going to turn into the incredible hulk, i would have left his ass like that. Before i knew it, Jay had got the door unlocked and practically ripped my door off when he opened it, then snatched me out of the car. When i got free of him, Jay chased me onto the curb and thats where the battle began.

Both Jay and I got into our stance, at first i was looking like really but after him taking a few swings at me i was oh no!

"Come on..." Jay said taking a swing at me. "Show me what you got little mama?" he sung while he swung. "Show me what you got pretty lady!" he said swing again but this time, he got a little too close to my face.

"Oh see now, I'm about to whoop you ass." i said charging at Jay throwing blows, but he always would grab ahold of me and maneuvered out the way.

After going at it for about a good 10 minutes, we finally came to a stop. Well Jay did, i guess he couldn't take no more abuse.

"Ok..Ok, i quick." Jay said, gasping for his breath. "Lets hug it out." he said as he stood there with his arms open.

"Alright fine, but only because i was beginning to work up a sweat." i joked, as i went in to hug Jay. But i should have known it wasn't going to be a simple hug with Jay. After wrapping his arms around me, he took me and lifted me into the air spinning around about 5 times really fast, then squeezing on to me really tight.

"Jaaaaaaay, put me down." I begged, screaming to the top of my lungs, becoming both dizzy and dazed.

"Nope!" Jay snarled, shaking me back and forth, while he was still holding me.

At that point, i had enough, i did what any desperate person would do at a time like this. I took my hand after getting it free and grabbed ahold of Jay's package, squeezing and grabbing on his extremely hard and rough. Jay let out the loudest squeal and he practically dropped me to the ground. Once i got free i just darted up the street, with Jay chasing behind me holding his self. 

Of course he caught up with me because i am not your fastest runner. But once he did he snatched his arm around me and put me into a head lock and began messing up my hair. Shortly after that we found ourselves walking up the street for a brief minute, until i realized i left my keys in the car and my door open. After going to close my door and get my keys, Jay and I decided to walk around for a little bit.

He still had his arm around me, but he had his fingers dung into my neck as he tickled. He was still getting his revenge from me violating him earlier. 

It was like things were good. Being with Jay made me forget about any and everything. And seeing him happy and joking around and not still moping over Evil, was a good feeling for me. And us being able to talk and have fun without all the other mess, made me realize that maybe Jay and I could continue on as friends. It's clear we have progressed so much in our relationship as friends and i hope things could continue on this way. Jay feels a void in my life, that i've been subconsciously missing. It was like Jay brings out both the best and worst in me. But its weird that i feel that way, because we're not even an item. But despite it all Jays friendship was enough for me.

Our time soon ended, though, when got a call from Kelly nagging me about that damn corn beef sandwich. And i couldn't have not brought her one after telling her that i was. So from there Jay and I parted ways. I met up with Kelly, where i gave her her sandwich. We also sat and talked for a minute, until i remembered i needed to get back home to get ready for my night with Emilio. We we're gonna order take out and chill out and order some movies, and have us a little dinner and a movie night. And if i was lucky maybe even get some. I don't think i can take too much more of Emilio holding out for me. Which is odd too me because a man of his kind of nature, would have made me thought differently.

Emilio arrived to my place around 7:30/7:45. And i was expecting us to have a lovely romantic night of fun, love, and passion but on this particular night things seemed different. It was like he was real distant with me and although he tried he best to play it off, it was no hiding it. We we're halfway trhought our first movie, The Notebook. One of the greatest love stories of all time, and when i went in to make a move on him he rejected me. And i could only take so much rejection, so finally i flipped.

"Whats you problem?" i asked very sharp like, sitting up after having been laying  up under Emilio.

"Nothing..." he casually replied. "Lets just finish watching the movie."

"Well i don't want to watch the movie anymore, in fact i really didn't even want to watch the movie at all. I had other plans in mind but it seems you don't." i replied with much more attitude then before.

"Please Beyonce, lets' not do this tonight." he guiltily begged.

"No lets." i said putting the movie on a pause. "Is it me or something?" i asked, feeling somewhat ashamed.

''No love....it's not." he said in a bit of frustration.

"Well what i is, is it another girl?" i asked, assuming that maybe that might be it.

"No thats not it either..." he said lightly laughing. "You know your the only woman in my life."

"Well is it another man?" i asked, figuring that maybe that was it. Shit, you never know now a days.

That really had Emilio laugh "Oh god no..." he said with his sexy little english accent. 

I laughed too "Well baby...what is it?" i said relaxing my emotions for a minute.

From the way Emilio's body language and his face expression changes, i knew things were about to get real serious, more then i would have ever thought.

"Emilo....wh-wh-whats going on?" i asked nervously and also worried.

Emilio moved closer towards me grabbing ahold of my hand, he rubbed it and began telling me things about us. "Beyonce..." he spoke again, i just love the way he said my name. "You know i really care about you, and these past 2 months have been the most extraordinary months of my life, and i've really felt a connection with you..."

For some reason it seemed like Emilio was trying to break up with me, because it seemed like some shit somebody would say if they were about to break up with you, so i snatched my hand away from him."Are you breaking up with me?" i asked all of sudden becoming emotional.

"No, I'm not breaking up with you...." he replied. "But i do need to tell you something." he went on to say.

"Well what do you need too tell me?" i asked with a look of concern.

"It's not easy for me to say this..." he said as he choked over his words. "And I'm not quite sure how your going to take this."

After ruling out of my other possibilities, thats when it hit me, he was sick. "How long have you known?" i asked.

The Emilio gave me a look of relief, like how did you know? "I've known when i was about 4 or 5." he went on to say.

"Omg, so you've been dealing with this all your life?" i asked completely about to break down.

"Pretty much...but it was hard having to hide it, people always picked on me and made fun of me about it." he replied in a low subjective tone.

"Oh Emilio." i said pulling him in to hug him. "It's okay, you don't have to hide it with me." i said comforting him, as i kept myself from trying to break down.

"Im glad to hear that...Your a absolutely everything i imagined you too be. I knew you would understand." he said in a much more confident voice.

"I'm just upset you didn't tell me about this in the beginning." i replied.

"Well i tried, but it was hard, i didnt know if you would accept me or not." he replied back. "And with the constant treatments i didn't think you would ever stick around."

"I mean well it's a lot to deal with, but i would never leave you because of it." i said to him.

"You just don't know how lucky i am to have you. It's not easy for people to accept that I'm a transexual, i've been rejected and turned down numerous times, and i never thought that i would ever truly find love until i met you."

OK! PAUSE, and lets rewind things here for a second. So Emilio just confessed to meet that he was a transexual, which i now see why he or she or whatever it is never wanted to have ex with me, BUT OMG that morning in the the kitchen. EWWWWWWWWWWWW! And this whole time i'm thinking he's sick and he's telling me about him well her being a transexual. OH HEEELLLLL NO! I was in full rage. And my face expressions didn't make things no better. I had that look of comical disbelief on my face. Like that moment when you found out something extreme and you don't know rather laugh or be angry so you do both at the same time. Yea that was that face.

"Transexual?!" i restated out loud. "You me to tell me YOUR A WOMAN?!"

"Wait i thought you knew that thats what i was talking about?" he or she replied in a terrified tone.

"NOOOOOOO!" i replied back. It was clear i could not restrain my emotions. "I thought you were talking about being sick! BUT A TRANSEXUAL!!!! You couldn't have possibly thought i would be ok with that." i began to snap. By this time i was standing to my feet pacing the floor, trying to capture my thoughts.

"Im sorry, i know i should have told you too began with, but we probably wouldnt have been here where we are now. " he/she said still trying to explain.

"Chhchchhch!!!!.....YOU THINK! I mean did you honestly think you could have kept this from me?!" i continued on.

"No, but i was planning on telling you but i was scared at how you might react, last time i told someone i ended up in the hospital." Emilio replied, causing me to feel a bit remorseful.

"All I'm saying is, Emilio..." i said trying to talk in a calmly matter. "You can't lie to people like this, because whats fucked is that i actually really liked you."

"Well if so..." Emilio said now standing up. "Why can't we just put this past us and move on. And if you need some space or some time too think, i can give you that." he/she trying to reason.

"No. No. No." i said with out a doubt in my mind. "Thats like asking me to be gay and I sure as hell don't swing that way. Because at the end of the day, you can't satisfy me the way a man can."i argued.

"But i can....how do you think we made it it these 2 months." he/she argued back.

"NOPE, UH-UN...it's not the same." i snapped.

"Bu---"

"But nothing. It's not up for debate." i said moving to the door, to let Emilio out. "Im sorry but Emilio, you have to leave."

"Im sorry that it has to come to this, but I'm sure as hell going to miss you." Emilio replied, all sadden.

"Yea me too." i said referring to the part of things coming to where they are. In a way i was going to miss Emilio, but not how he/she was going to miss me.

And with that being said Emilio left and i went and hopped in the shower quickly after. I took the most longest shower trying to rinse off and wash away the disgust i was feeling. I wasn't even hurt or sadden, i was more so mad and disgusted. Like how could you literally string me along for all this time with that type of secret. It took everything in me not to drop kick her ass all over my damn living room. But after telling me how she ended up in the hospital last time, sort of touched me. And i tried my best to remain as cool as i could get about it. I had no intentions on telling ANYONE about this. This was something that i was going to take to the grave with me. And the fact that i kept Emilio on the DL was going to make the keeping it a secret a whole lot better.

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