Chp12

I was sitting at work bored out of my mind. I don't even know why I come to work, especially on a Tue stay because its normally slow. The only the i could think about to keep my sanity, was Jay, and the wonderful night we had last night. He took me out for dinner, but it wasn't a normal type of dinner. The place we went to had live music and performances, but of local small town people who had a thing for poetry and writing music. It was great the to experience the many different styles of people and artist. I really enjoyed myself and my time with Jay. The fact that he and i have been spending so much time together lately, was having me think we could actually take it too that next step. I mean here we are 7 months later and we're still maintaing. I mean we all know it wasn't easy, but the both of us are in too good places so i don't see why not.

I was so into my thoughts that i didnt even realize Jay walking in. Seeing Jay just brightens up my day. He always puts a smile on my face and makes me feel warm inside. And what i love more about him showing up is that i had no idea he was even coming.

"Hey yal..." Jay said to Angie and Ty, grasping my attention as i heard his voice.

"Hey Jay...." Angie said accepting his hug.

"The way you be in here all the time, i guess we're gonna have to put you on pay-roll." Ty joked, as him and Jay shook hands and did their little manly hug. When ever we go out people always look at us as a couple. The crazy thing about it though is that when i was walking to my car one day, a reporter came up to me asking questions about Jay, but ignored them, and when i told Jay about it he said it was nothing and laughed about it. Shit, i wish i had reporters asking about me. Still til this day i have no clue what that is all about.

Jay being around so much lately, has made an impact on my life completely as far as with my friends, my work, and other little things.

"Ha, you silly. But that don't sound too bad." Jay joked back. "What's up B?" Jay said with a smile making his way over to greet me. Lately he's been calling me that.

"Heyyy...." i timidly said as if i was meeting Jay for the first time, letting Jay embrace me with his strong arms. Today when he hugged me, he hugged me a little tighter and a little longer. "Geesh, you act like you haven't seen me in forever." i teased.

"Well maybe i missed you a little...." Jay said wittingly.

"Aw just a little..." i said pretending to be sad.

"Well yea, you haven't been away from me long along too miss you too much. But even so i can't let that happen...a day without seeing you, naaaaaaaaa!" he said trying to flirt in a way.

I giggles at how cute he was being and I just couldn't stop smiling. You see what i mean when i says he always keeps me smiling. "So what brings you up here?" i asked gradually changing the subject before i turn completely red.

"Well i had the next couple of hours free....and well judging by the looks of things you are too and i was just wondering if you wanted to grab some lunch?" he asked.

"Well you know you could have just called me, you didnt have to come all the way here, that way i could have just met you." i replied.

"But i needed an excuse to come see you...." he said smiling.

"Ok now...." i began "You better stop, got my jaws locking up from cheesing to hard." i playfully said.

"I tend to have that effect on women...." Jay said modestly.

"Oh what ever...." i said with a laugh.  "And i would love to go to lunch with you, but remember i told you my sister is coming into town today, is she's going to need help moving her things. And she has the baby too, so it's really going to be a lot." I said not really wanting to have to say no to Jay.

"Oh." Jay said sounding disappointed. "Well how about i come help then. And after we all go out to eat or something." he happily suggested.

"Really?" i asked, but more so to myself. "You would do that?"

"Of course, i don't mind." he replied.

"Ok.....cool. We'll we're gonna meet up at my house around 2-2:30, and from there we have to go to Brooklyn to meet up with the movers and all that other stuff." i explained.

"Awww shit, she's moving to BK?" he said seeming excited, but not me because that meant i would have to make that drive all the time.

"Yea, why?" i asked curiously.

"Im from Brooklyn..." he said with a lot of thrill and excitement.

"Really?....i thought you were from NYC?'' i said because i assumed that since he was staying NYC that he was from there.

"Nope, i only moved here. It's where a lot of my businesses are."

"Businesses?" i asked again. "I mean i know you had some things under you, but you said it like you had a lot." i went on to say.

"Yea..thats cuz i do." Jay said laughing at me with keep having to ask him a question after everything. "But we can save that for another day of discussion."

"Yea, lets..." i replied, still a little surprised by the little info i just found about Jay.  It was like i was meeting him all over again.

"Well i guess i can go ahead and get out of here then..." Jay said after checking his watch. "Just give me a call or something when it gets close to that time."

"Ok, well see you in a little bit." I said as Jay and i hugged again.

"Alright.." he said. "Ty, Angie..." he said chucking up deuces at them as he walked out.

"I just wish yal go ahead and get together already, i don't know whats stopping yal." Angie said to me for like the millionth time.

"Right..." Ty joined in. "The both are yal single as hell and yal act like yal are already."

"I knoooowww....." i said undeniably "But its not the same like all the other times, the both of us know good in well how we feel, but we've been so comfortable with being friends with each other and trying to tell ourself that we can be friends, thats its like now where stuck."

"Well yal need to get unstuck." Angie snapped. "Yal kill me."

"Damn, calm down red rover." TY roasted on Angie, and we all fell out laughing.  And he called her red rover because she was dressed in all red, and because she so short, it's makes her look all crazy, but in a cute way.

"Shut up." she said hitting TY. "But I'm saying Bey, you better go and hop on that or thats all you guys will ever be is friends."

"Bla bla bla...." i said in-resistance to Angie, i knew she was right but i didnt want anybody to keep telling me how to do things, i wanted them to happen naturally being how things turned out the last time. "And lets finish this later..."i stared back "we have a customer." i said and well all got back to work.
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After about a few hours and some time later, we were all meeting back up but were all headed to BK to help Solo get situated with having to move. It was me, Jay, Solo, and Juelz in the car, Angie and Ty in another, and Kelly and Calvin in the other. So i guess you can say we was rolling deep. Good thing though that Solo only stayed a good 23 minutes from the bridge because with us talking so much the time just seemed to pass.

By the time we finally got their, it was like we were already half way done because the movers had already started moving things in so it was cool. Solo also mentioned that before hand she gave them an extra set of keys because they were on a certain payment plan and if they went past the time then we would have to pay double but Solo said she said Ch, fuck that. So thats why they had the keys, but in all i didnt mind because it was less work that i would have to do.

I carried in Juelz, while everyone else went on grabbing boxes and what not. I ducked off as long as i could, until Solo found out that Jeulz had fell asleep, so i had to get my lazy ass up and carry some boxes. After about a good 2 hrs (but i really wanna say 4 because thats whats it feels like) of moving things, and pure exhaustion we we're done. The only thing we really had to upack at the end, was clothes, toiletries, dishes, and other little things like that. Then we sort of sat around catching our breath's until we finally got the strength to get up an go get something to eat. We ended up going to this steak house we came across going into the city. And boy i couldn't wait to grub. 

Im surprised how fast we were seated being that we had such a big crowd which was good because I couldn't wait to eat. We got seated, and they ad to combined a table or two together for us to get seated. But once we were and had begun to ordered, everything was just smooth sailing. Well so o thought.

"OMG..." i said with a mouth full of food. "Th..ish is soooo, gooood!"

"Girl if Tina was too see you eating like that!" Kelly commented.

"Hahhaha, IKR Kelly..." Solo joined, as they began to tease me.

"Blahhha....whatever..." i said after just having swallowed it down. "Well Tina aint here so ima eat how i wanna eat." i shot back and they both laughed. Then some how i started making googling faces at Juelz, and Solo was rambling across the table to Calvin, and everyone else was in conversation with each other. 

In the midst of talking, i kept getting interrupted from something brushing against my leg. I was in the middle of talking to Lo when it pet happening. I thought it was Juez leg that kept hitting me from him swinging his leg in the high chair, but he was too far away. I don't know why but for some reason something told me to look over to Jay and there his ass was sitting there with a smirk on his face. Thats when i knew this were his finger tips tapping against my thighs.

At first i didnt know how to react so i began laughing which caused Jay to chuckle but made him kept on. "Can you stop???" i said shy like but also accepting. He was sitting at the head of the table and i was sitting to the right of him.

"Stop what?" he innocently said, but by the end of the sentence i had smacked his hand away. "Hmp." he simply replied still with a smirk on his face.

Having Jay flirt and pick with me was something different when i use to be in the friend zone, but now being at the point he and i are at and he's doing it is all weird too me. It's like i want him too, but i don't want him to know that i want him too. Yea it's a crazy feeling. 

Jay and I played around with each other for a few minutes more, until we were pulled into a group conversation and everybody started discussing the craziest thing we ever did, and it was on Kelly.

"The craziest thing i ever doooooone....." Kelly said as she began to snicker a bit "Oh man.... " she said still laughing. "The craziest thing i ever done was have sex with a boy then right after break up with him." she proudly said.

"Who in the  fuck does that?" Angie said laughing.

"Sssssoooooo why fuck then break up?" Solo curiously asked.

"Well atleast now he doesnt have to look back and feel so miserable about me breaking up with him." she said seriously.

I didnt even say anything because i already knew. Kelly and I talked about everything together so it wasn't nothing new to me. I just shook my head at them as things carried on.

"Damn baby...is that how your gonna do me." Calvin playfully asked.

"Well if you act right, you don't have to worry about that now do you." she said kissing him as he became silent and the Conversation picked back up. Solo went on to speak about the craziest thing she ever done, was have sex in the car at the drive-in. It was with Daniel of course. But the way these stories started going i just knew how things were going from here.

"Okkkk..ok..." i said interrupting them and they're laughter. "My nephew is sitting right here, yal better clean it up." i joked, i knew my turn was coming and i wasn't prepared so i was trying to throw in a distraction.

"Oh whatever.....Juelz is 6 months, he hardly knows anything that is going on..." Solo started off.

"Yea.." Angie added. "She just trying to get out of not answering."

"Yal know she good for that." Ty followed.

Everybody was laughing including Jay, i couldn't help but turn red.

"Aw..Dont get mad. They're just joking with you." Jay said in a comforting tone. But it wasn't like I was mad it was just everybody was coming at me at once and i didnt have a come back for everybody. And Jay being their to let me know things were good flattered me, so i took advantage of his pity.

"It's cool...im not mad." i said still pretending to be mad in a way even though i wasn't. "But the craziest thing i ever done.." i said giving in after remembering some shit. "Was ignore Tina in front of this boy i thought was cute at the store  and she finally got my attention when she slapped the lyrics out my mouth....cuz i was singing trying to ignore her and everything." I said falling into complete laughter as the rest of them joined in.

"whew yea..." Solo said catching her breath "I remember that shit, i remember it good." she said in a teasing manner.

"Moms don't play....." Jay said joining in as he chuckled.

"Hush up punk." i said as i reached across to hit Jay. "Your not suppose to be laughing at me." i said when a sad face.

"Aw I'm sorry." Jay said pulling me in for a hug. And although we were playing around with each other, we both knew on the real that we were just as serious about things as we were playing.

"Well Mr. I wanna cater to the cry baby..." Solo teased. "Lets hear some of the crazy things you did." she said causing me to lift up, so that i could focus my attention to Jay because i was eager to know.

"I don't think yal wanna hear my stories....?!" Jay said in amusement.

"Yea, we do." i implied.

"Yea come on, tell us." Kelly insisted.

"Well alright...but i'm warning yal...yal made me tell." Jay said with that same creepy ass smirk on his face. "The craziest shit i ever did wasssss..." he responded like he was going into thought. "Fuck my home boy's mom WHILE he was there." Jay said and everybody went crazy.

"My man." Calvin said as he and Jay slapped fives from across the table. 

"I mean how did dude not know, i know he must have heard yal." Ty said.

"Nope. I had her head in the pillow." Jay said and everybody went nuts again. He was really on a roll with them.

"Sooo, are yal still friends or...." Angie asked.

"Nope, he couldn't get over the fact that i was almost his dad." Jay continued on, as did everyone else.

"You'rs sick." I teased to Jay.

"Don't worry, we can have us a crazy moment one day." Jay said halfway joking and halfway serious. 

I just playfully went along with it. I was enjoying Jay's company, his attention, and having him around. I love his playfulness, his flirting ways, his charming ways, his thuggish ways, his appearance, his demeanor, his swag, shit damn near everything about him. And if he felt the same way then he was going to have to make the move this time, not me.

Our dinner ended soon, but the laughing, and the joking, and the bonding didnt. We got back to Solo's house, we're Jay had brought some liquor and more food for everyone. We were all having such a great time that we didn't want to leave, even though i was planning on staying, but when everyone decided to just stay the night, that's when things became so much more fun.

Because Juelz was there and Solo was still a underaged (well to drink anyways but that didnt stop her), we didnt want to go all out and get chocolatey wasted, so we decided to play Never had I...a game where you have to name something that you never did, but if another person has done it then they would have to take a shot.

I thought i would have did pretty good in been the least intoxicated one, but Kelly started cheating and naming shit that she knew i did that she didnt just so i could get fucked up. And when i caught on to her, i did the same thing. But between the two who were fucked up the most it had to of been Jay and Kelly. The two of them most definitely have did some things, followed by TY, Calvin, Angie, Solo, then me. And i was a little surpassed that Solo was more adventurous i would say then me, but then again i can totally see it.

We must have forgot about Tv and shit because we all spent the whole night talking. Solo went to bed first, after Julez woke up out of his sleep. Then went Angie on the couch and TY in the lazy boy, and as for Kelly and Calvin, i had no clue because the two of them disappeared. My buzz level was at it's max, and i was extremely tired from moving, working, and eating, and all that other stuff that i just wanted to lay down in relax. But it wasn't that i was sleepy tired, i just wanted to lay down. And after Jay not returning back from where ever the hell he went off too I ducked off into one of the rooms assuming to plop onto a big comfy bed, only the find boxes of unpacked clothes in one bed room, and other stuff in the other.

I guess with it just being her and Juelz there, she does really need any other beds or bedding furniture. So i would understand why she wouldnt have any yet. I didnt mind though. I just grabbed me a blanket out of one of the closets, and a pillow from off one of the couches and made me a pallet on the floor. I was on my phone checking emails, when in walks Jay. I had somewhat managed to forget about him in a way.

"You sleep?" he whispered aloud after just taking a fews steps in the room.

"Nooo." i replied. "....Im up."

Jay hesitated before moving then he came over by me, but he sat on top of a box instead of directly next to me.

"Everybody then went to sleep" i said beginning to break the silence "Lord knows where Kelly and Calvin are."

"They outside." Jay replied.

"How you know?" i said trying to look at him through the dark.It was hard trying to have a conversation with someone you couldnt see.

"Because i was just there." he said.

"They were probably out their having sex. I swear those two are nothing but dome hound dogs."

 i joked, laughing ti myself kind of.

Jay chuckling "They sure was too. I had to bring my ass back in the house." 

"What were you doing out there anyway, you were gone for a long time?" I just replied with out a thought, but i was a little curious.

"Why?" Jay asked in a funny voice. "You was missing me?" he flirtatiously.

"A little..." i said in innocent denial. "I was betting a bit lonely." i went on to say.

"My bad...I just took a little smoke break thats all." he answered nonchalant.

I didnt find it alarming that Jay was a smoker, and i didnt put it past him what it was he was smoking, which was non of my business, but a hell of a turn on. Before those seconds past before i could speak the silence crept back up and filled the air. It got to the point where i felt like we were just staring at each other even though we could hardly see each other.

"Scoot over." Jay said after kicking off his shoes and crawling on the floor next to me. I did as he told without saying a word. I must have been more comfortable with Jay then i thought, for allowing him to lie down next to me. I mostly think because i was partially drunk and my nerves were at ease, or simply because i didnt bother me and i didnt mind it. It was actually a thrill having Jay lay on the side of me.

"Man i can't even remember the last time i ever slept on a floor." Jay said jokingly.

"I neverrrr in my life had to sleep on a floor. I mean well i did when i had sleep overs but not just because i had to." I commented, starting up a extreme conversation between Jay and I.

"I can't even picture you ever being in a situation like that, you just seem to high-strung and high standard." Jay implied, but i didnt find it offending.

"I'm not saying that i couldnt handle living like that, it's just something that would take getting use too." i replied.

"I understand." he answered.

Then from there Jay and I sparked other conversations and talked about any and everything. Damn that liquored really loosened us up and shit, i thought. Because here i was with Jay having heart to heart and just real live moments, talking about real things, you know just really opening up to him.

(Jay's thought)

Talking to Beyonce right now is making me like her sooo much more then what i did before. As i grew to know Beyonce, i also grew to learn her as well. These past 6 months has been incredible, but the good and the bad moments. But meeting Beyonce was about the best thing that has ever happened to me. She makes me feel all warm inside when i'm around her. And as a man, i don't think a guy should be feeling like that about no girl, but Beyonce just wasn't some girl to me she was different. I had my mistakes of not doing what i was suppose to and stepping up, or not wanting Beyonce in the ways that i do now, but my feelings for her have became a lot more stronger and much more intense that its hard trying to hold in how i feel. I have all these things i want to tell her that i thinking about when i see her, but i never have the courage to say it. I've been trying to be subtle and throw in little hints every here and there and flirt with her, but i guess she needs more then that so i guess I'm just gonna have to give her what she needs. It may be the liquor giving me courage right now, but i promise what ever happens tonight i want regret a thing in the morning.

I was laying there in silence after noticing Jay sort of space out. The lighting that came through from the window, hit his face just enough to where i could see him, more then before. We were laying upon our backs, as we looked over to each other before when we were talking. But as the silence came and Jay's mind began to wonder, as did mine when i felt his hand slide slowly and smoothly across my stomach. Immediately my body flinched but it calmed down as it got use to the feeling. I for one wasn't going to say anything because i wanted to see where Jay was going to go from there and i also wanted him to think i didnt feel him touching me because he was touching my skin, applying the right amount of pressure to where i can and cannot feel it at the same time, which was weird yet riveting.

"So what time do you wanna head back tomorrow?" Jay said, as he kept on.

I cleared my throat because trying to talk at first was hard as i got lost in those few short minutes. "Well i was planning on staying another day. I meant to tell you all this before we left. I guess i just forgot." i replied apologetically.

"It's cool. I bought some extra clothes just in case. This not one of those rides where you can just get up and leave." Jay joked, still caressing my stomach.

"Yea, you're right." i simply said. I was trying not to let Jay know that i was enjoying this, so i was trying to play it off as much as possible. Then the caressing came to a stop, but Jay's hand remained on my navel.

"When did you get this done?" Jay asked as he began playing with my belly ring, which i also forgot about. It's been so long since i've got it done.

"Uhhhm..." i said all lost for a minute. "Wh..When i was 18, i did it on my birthday."

"Oh. When's you birthday?" Jay asked, shooting me with another question.

"September 4th, i thought i told you." i replied.

"I must have forgot..." Jay responded. ""And yours is on the 4th just like mine." Jay said happily.

"Yup and I'm a virgo..." i added. "And you must be a ca--"

"Yup a cancer." he said assuming i was about to say it.

"Well that explains why your so sensitive." i teased.

"Shut up!" Jay chuckled, tickling me a bit, then out of nowhere pulled me closer towards him. "Why you seem so far away?" Jay said, trying to play things off, but i saw right through him.

"You know...if you wanted me to come closer, i would have, all you had to do was ask." i said flirtatiously.

"Well evidently i wanted you by me therefore i pulled you in." Jay shot back, matching the same tone and mood as me.

At this point, i didnt know what was playing words or what was for real. Like i said before we're both pretty buzzed, and we're always playing around like this, so was it normal yea, but were my emotions and my actions just as normal, not in a playing sense i would say, but i was willing to have some fun.

Once again it  was silent after my laughter had finally died down. I couldn't take Jay serious right now, so it was like all i could do was laugh.

"You must think I'm a joke or something?" Jay asked.

"Noo..." i said laughing some more "I just can't take you serious right now."

"Is it because I'm drunk?" Jay shot back.

"Nooo, i mean Yes...i mea--" i said not really sure how to answer that. I was not in the mood to be trying to think.

"Well what is it?" Jay asked sincerely wanting to know.

"It's just weird, i guess thats all..." i said finally letting my words out. "Things aren't how they use to be before between us, and it's like we both know it but we continue to ignore it. Like now..."

"What do you mean like now?" jay asked wanting me to explain.

"Like i can pretend that you're just playing around by touching on me and what not but i know for you, it's probably something you've been wanting to do and for me it's like i've been wanted it to happen and now  that it is i guess i 'm just kind of taken off by it." i explained, hoping Jay could better understand.

"Look Beyonce....im just gonna be real with you." Jay said in a more serious tone, he was also still holding me. "Im not gonna lie....I want you man...i want you bad.  But the way i did you in the past i just didnt think if would ever happened."

Jay telling me that he wanted me was not a shock to me, if anything i was more relieved because it was like FINALLY, this is exactly what i have been waiting on.

"See that was our probably before, lack of communication and fear, fear of not wanting to acknowledge our feelings for each other." i stated.

"Well i'm acknowledging them now and I'm letting you know....I want you as my lady, and i don't want no if, buts, or maybes'.." Jay said in a bit of a flow. I chuckled at how cute he was being, "So whats up, are we gonna make this thing happen or not?"

I heisted with my answer for a minute to throw Jay off and give a bit of suspense when overall i my answer was HELL YEA. "Are you sure, your ready for that? Because it's okay if not." i said in a playfully sense.

"No, are youuuu ready." Jay said back, tickling me again. And from there nothing else was needed to be said, because Jay knew just as well as i knew what it was i was going to say. I just wanted to mess with him a bit, i couldn't just say yes that easy. But yea, it was official. Jay and I were finally, finally, on the right track. And there we, laid out on the floor, tied in each others arms. I probably should have hopped on Jay all dramatic like how they do in the movies, but Jay and I were nothing like how you see in the movies. Our shit was real life and these were real feelings involved, it was no script.

I couldnt help but lay there and think about my future with Jay. It was crazy because it seemed like it all happened so fast because it was really happening after all this time. And i could think about was the frame for our future being that i must be in stored for whats to come,  the pictures of our past being that i will forever hold those memories, and thinking on the present and how i could give Jay and I a chance to build a place upon love to see and we can make this things last.