Chp2

     Since seeing Jay and actually meeting him, i haven't been able to get him out my head. I've been waiting a whole week for him to ask me out, but i haven't seen nor heard from him since then. I mean, i thought breakfast and our little walk end good. Maybe he's gay or maybe I'm not his type. But oh well, it is what it is. On the other hand, Paul came over finally and gave me the type of attention i was needing. I came home the other day and found him in my apartment with a full course meal cooked and set up on my dining room table. But we didn't even get a chance to eat because the minute i walked in we were all over each other. And as usual he was gone by sunrise. 

     

     Which was my decision because i didn't want him thinking it was anymore then what it was. I was fine with just having some good ol sex every now and then. And while i was out having my fun i still had to face the reality about my company going back on the market. I refused to let that happen. Instead of just stressing about it i decided to deal with it when i deal with it. But as for now, i was going to spend my weekend in Houston being that it's been nearly 2 months since i've seen my parents. And with Solo due any day now, i didn't want to be in New York when i got the call that she gave birth to my nephew. I was still getting use to the idea of my little sister about to be a mom. I mean she's only 18, this is all new to me. Her boyfriend Daniel was a pretty ok guy. But me being big sister, i feel nobody will ever be good enough for my sister.

     Coming home i was feeling a bit uneasy. I didn't want my parents hassling me about work and the company. I just wanted to relax for once and not have to think about work. When i got there, my mother was in the kitchen getting dinner started as usual and my father was away at the office. Solo was upstairs of course getting her rest for the arrival of the baby. After greeting my mom i decided to go up and check on her. When i got upstairs i saw that she was sleeping so peacefully so i didn't want to disturb her. I left by leaving a kiss on her forehead to let her know i was here. After that i headed back downstairs to chat with my mom.

"Man it smells so good in here." i said making my way back into the kitchen.

"Don't it always..." she gracefully replied.

"How is it that, Solo could cook but i can't."

"Thats because you were worried about other things." she joked.

"Oh what ever." i replied. "What time will daddy be home."

"uhm.." starts to check her watch. "He should be coming home within the next hour or so. Why?" she asked.

"Just asking.." i started out ".. well to tell you the truth i just wanna know cuz I'm not trying too be here when he's here."

"And why is that?" she said cutting up some potatoes.

"Because Ma, every time we talk it's always about work and what he wants me to do and i aint trying here all that."

"Well you know how your father is." she said chuckling.

"Thats not funny." i said becoming angry.

"Im sorry baby. But i can't help it. You too are so much alike it's ridiculous. The both of yal are about as stubborn as a m--"

"Hey there baby." my dad said waltzing into the kitchen giving my mom a kiss on the cheek, and i became completely irritated. ""Whats up Beyonceeeee?" he said to me.

"Hey." i said very dryly.

"Whats up with you?" he asked.

"Nothing." i replied. Then got up and walked out the kitchen.

"Whats wrong with her?" my dad asked my mom.

"I don't know. Thats your child, why you asking me?" she answered.

"hahaha very funny. Ima go talk to her."

"Now Mathew don't go bothering that girl. Leave her alone your always hounding her." she snapped.

"You think thats whats wrong with her?" he asked.

"I don't know. But maybe. All i know just give her her space, she'll come to you when she wants to talk."

He just stood there giving my mom a look. He knew she was right, but he was so hard headed, that he always found a way to undermined what my mom would say to him. "Alright, ill leave it alone." he said.

"Please. Otherwise your gonna drive her away."

"Ok. Tina i hear you geesh."

"Will you better!" she snapped back. "Now your home from work early, why is that?"

"I finished up on all my proposal's at work on time, so instead of spending extra time their, i decided to come home." he said.

"Oh ok. Well go upstairs and get cleaned up dinner will be ready soon."

"Alright baby..." he said giving her another kiss before levying out.

I was sitting upstairs in my old room, when in walks my dad. I guess we do have that in common, because what ever my mom tells us to do we always end up doing the complete opposite.

"Hey darling...is it ok if i come in."

"Well your half way in now" which he was "so i don't see why not."

"Look Beyonce, i didn't come up here to fight with you, i came up here to apologize for whatever i did to make you mad at me. Thats all." he said as he sat down on the bed.

"All is forgiven." i replied.

"Baby look at me please?" he said waiting for me to turn my head before he kept on "I just want whats best for you thats all. It's nothing personal."

"I know that, but it's like you always end up trying to take over and totally control everything, i just feel like you need to take a back seat sometimes and when i need your help, i'll come too you."

"I hear you baby."

"No you dont because you say that all the time." i said.

"No but i mean it. You won't have to worry about me getting in the way anymore." he said back.

"Will i'll believe it for now, but if it happens don't count on me to be cool about it." i replied.

"Alirght, deal." he said extending out his for me to shake it.

"Deal." i said as we hugged it out.

"Well let me go get cleaned up for dinner. And i'l see you in a little bit."

"Ok." i said feeling a bit better.

     Finally. This is all i ever wanted. I don't know what made him come to his senses but I'm glad he did. Now that's one less thing that i have to worry about. BZZZ. BZZZ. BZZZ. My phone began to go off, interrupting me and my thoughts. But it was Ty so i didn't mind.

"Whats up TyTy?" i said cheerfully.

"Uhm whats up with you missy?" he said as if he was trying to insatiate something.

"What you mean TY?" i asked.

"Oh don't play dumb with me, Ms. I got guys running all over town looking for me." he answered.

"Guys?" i thought to myself. "What guys?" i said asking Ty.

"Well it was really just one guy, but any who, he came by the store and he just left about a couple minutes of go, but he was asking for you and about you?"

"Well did he leave a name or number? and what was he asking?"

"Yea, his name Tay, Jay, or Day...i don't know, but something like that." he said.

"JAY!" i said becoming excited.

"Yea i guess, but he did leave a number. Do you want it?"

"Yea but text it too me, K?" i said to Ty.

"Alright." he responded.

"Oh and Ty, call me later or ill probably call you." i said.

"Ok." he said as we both hung up.

     It felt like forever waiting on that text from Ty. I couldn't believe that he was still thinking about me. Letting alone actually trying to find me. I wonder what he wanted. I wonder how he even found the store. BZZZ. BZZZ. BZZZ. My phone went off and it was Ty texting me the number. I probably dialed the number quicker then i remembered it. And as the phone rang those butterflies began to fly around in my stomach again. And it's crazy because i don't get like that about most that i meet. Shawn was the first one in a while to have me feeling like this.

"Hello." Jay answered sounding very sexy over the phone.

"Hello Jay?" i asked making sure that it was him.

"Yea whats up? Who's this?" he asked.

"It's me Bey..Beyonce, i mean." i said getting choked up.

"Oh Hey Beyonce, whats up? How are you doing? You know i just left from your store. But the guy that was there said that you weren't there."

"Heyyy.....and Im fine, and yea I'm out of town for the weekend. But how have you been?"

"I've been good" he replied "So you said your out of town huh?"

"Yuup."

"Oh well thats sucks." he said.

"And why is that?" i asked.

"Because..." he started out letting out a laugh."i don't know if i wanna tell you this?" he added.

"Tell me what?" i asked curious to know.

"You probably might think i'm crazy if i tell you this." he replied.

"No tell me please, i wanna know." i practically begged.

"Ok, ok, ok i'll tell you." he said giving in to my begging "Well i spent all afternoon trying to find you, i even went and knocked on your door a few times, but when you didn't respond i figured i would go down to your store. But since you only gave me one name i thought it was going to be hard to find you, but you the only Beyonce, that i know in the whole NY, so i looked you up in the yellow pages."

"Wow. You went through all of that, why didn't you just call." i teased.

"Well you think if i had your number i would be all over town looking for you." he said finding my teasing him amusing.

"Hey...maybe your phone could have gone dead." i said bringing in more jokes.

"Naaaaa, i got 2 phones, and both stay charge, i rarely ever use one and the other is my business phone."

"Oh okay." i said, and like always here comes that awkward silence. "Sooooo, is that all you had too tell me?" i asked, because i was hoping it wasn't.

"No. As a matter of fact, i was calling because i got the little thing coming up. I don't know if you heard about fashion week." he asked being funny.

"Yea.." i chuckled "What about it?" i asked.

"Well what if i were to say, i want you to be apart of it. You know, like get you some models, get you some designs, and lets make some magic baby." he said.

"OMG JAY. Are you serious?" i asked so in shock.

"Yea, I'm dead ass serious. So whats up do you think you'll be interested."

"Of course!" i said practically screaming into the phone. "Omg, Jay i don't know what to say."

"Just say that Jay's the man and we can call it even." he sarcastically said.

"JAY"S THE MAN!" i replied.

"Yea, you bet i am." he joked.

"So when exactly is it?" i asked.

"In about 2 or 3 weeks from now. I don't know it off the top of my head, but now that i have your number i can just send you the information."

"Ok. That would be great. Wow Jay...im still just speechless. You have to let me pay you back or something?"

"Na, no need. It's all coming from love."

"No really, it would mean a lot to me." i said insisting that he think of something.

"Well come to think of it, a friend of mine is having a party, I don't know if you know him....Chris Martin is his name, but well he's having a Halloween Party and i don't normally go to stuff like that, but i figured if you come along with me, then why not." he said.

"OMG, i love cold play, and yea sure i'll go with you."

"Alright cool, i'll text you with those details too."

"Ok." i replied.

"Well i would love to chat more with you Beyonce but i have to go. I'll be giving you a call soon though, and I'm gonna go ahead and save your number right now."

"Ok, and i'll do the same." i replied.

"Alright, have a nice night Beyonce." he said.

"You too Jay." i said then hung up.

     I was sitting in my bed super geeked. I was feeling like that girl back in high school who was being asked out by her crush. But come to think of it, i don't want to get way over my head with this whole Jay situation. I have to    make sure i actually like him before i just go on with things. I mean it's one thing to like somebody and it's another thing to lust for somebody. And Paul with be a perfect example of lust, because baby that man is Mmp, Mmp, Mmp! And every time i see him i wanna Mmp, Mmp, Mmp! And i dated a few guys, but none of them were ever really serious until i got to college. He was a junior and i was a freshman. Check me out scoring a Junior as a freshy. But things were really good between us, but when it came to goals and deciding our life together was where everything fell apart. I will always love him because he was my first true love and all that comes with it, but just like vinegar and oil, we just weren't made for each other. I spoken to him in almost a year. But we make sure we try to stay in touch with each other. And if something does spark between Jay and I, i'm willing to let it and see where it goes.

"THUUUUUUUUUUUUU...." solo said barging into my room, interrupting my thoughts. And when i looked up to see her, i couldn't help but get distracted by her gi-normous belly.

"OMG Lo....look at you!" i said smiling from ear to ear. I thought it was so wonderful that my sister was pregnant because i feel that the greatest gift god could give somebody. But even after 8 1/2 months i still wasn't use to it.

"God Bey, do you have to say that every time you see me." she said as if she was annoyed by it.

"YES!! Because i still can't believe it. I mean like i didn't even know you were having sex." i said beginning to whisper because i began to get uncomfortable when talking about things like this to her. It's hard accepting Solo as a woman now, when i use to look at her like she was my little baby.

"OH GOD, here you go." she said breaking into laughter.

"Wellll, you aired for like everrrrr to tell me." i added.

"Girl, let it gooooooo. You should be thinking about your nephew about to be here. Its almost time." she said as she began to rub on her stomach.

"I know and i'm so excited. I can hardly wait. I just want to hold him and squeeze he little cheeks." i said beginning to talk to Solo's stomach.

"So have you guys decided on a name." i asked.

"Yea, he's going to be a Jr. But i don't know though, because what if Daniel and I don't work out. I mean he talks about getting married and what not, but i don't want him to feel like that just because i pregnant you know." she said as she began to confide in me.

"Well has he been supporting you lately." i asked.

"Yea, but as much as he can. This job that he got sucks because it involves him going from state to state. 2 days here, 5 days there, a week here, and the maximum amount of time he could be could is up too a month, and honestly Thu, i don't think i'll be able to put up with all that. I need Daniel now and I'm going to need him even more after i have this baby. And you already know abortion was NEVER an option." she expressed.

It hurt me to see my sister like this. And as much as i could and want to help her, it's not the same as Daniel being involved. Solo knows she has the love and support from us, but with out Daniel, that like having cake without the icing. I mean likes you can still eat it that way, but it's tastes much better with the icing.

"Aw Lo.." i said beginning to rub her back for comfort. "I probably will never fully understand what you are going through, but hear me when i say i understand. I got your back. Im here for you. Anything you need or want i got you."

"I know Bey and thanks, i needed to hear that. And i've been talking to dad about unlocking my trust fund so that i don't have to wait until I'm 21, even though i can just go and take out what i need, but it's only limited. And i know mom and dad want mind me staying here, but come on Bey, do it look like i want to stay here. I want to have my own place and spot for me and my child and not have to worry about nobody else but me and mines, you know."

"Yea i feel you." i said beginning to feel my sister's pain, and it was killing me to know that she was feeling this way. "We're going to get through this together, ok. I mean it."

"I'm scared though Bey and i know that once he gets here it's no turning back." she said in a deep whimpering voice.

"Don't be. I'll be right there with you, I PROMISE. Now stop crying and get yourself together, so we can head downstairs before mama brings her butt up here and i know you don't feel like dealing with that." i began to joke, to lighten up the mood.

And when Solo cracked a smile i knew i had did my job. "Right, come on." she said. "Oh and thanks Bey, i really needed this."

"Hey, I'm your sister, thats what i'm here for."

     Solo and I made our way downstairs once she felt she was okay and joined our mom and dad for dinner. Sitting at the table felt like old times, just with out Kelly, who was in Atlanta finishing up school. She was going into tv broadcasting or something like that. Kelly is determined to be on tv, by any means necessary.

Dinner was going great, everyone was chatting and laughing, you know really having a good time. All you could hear was forks and spoons clicking against the plate. And me, I was smashing down on some red beans, scalped potatoes, cornbread, and cabbage. If it's one thing i miss about being home, it's my mother's home cooked meals. I get tired of ordering out back at home, because NY does not throw down like they do in the south.

"OMG." Solo shouted causing everyone to stop eating and focus their attention on her.

I didn't know what to do or how to react, but once the words, IT'S TIME leave her mouth i just might lose it.

"What, whats wrong?" my dad said beginning to panic.

"Is he coming?" my mom asked trying to remain calm.

I just sat there staring hard at Solo, waiting for her to say something. "Well I'm not sure, but my stomach just started hurting really bad."

Immediately my mother jumped up "On a scale of 1-10 how bad is the pain."

"100!" Solo yelled out loud, as she tensed up and gripped the table tightly.

"Ok. Thats it, lets go!" my mother said helping Solo out of the chair, as Solo held her stomach like it was about to drop.

     Me and my dad got up and followed behind them and i don't know who was more scared him or me. But i was for sure Solo was not going to be the only one to end up in the hospital. After getting all what we needed to go, we piled up in my dad's truck. The car ride seemed liked the longest car ride ever to the hospital, which was funny because my dad was pushing about 80 all the way there. All i kept hearing was my mom telling Solo to 

"BREATHE" but i think she should have been telling me that. I became so noxious during that car ride, and part of it was because i became car sick from my dad driving like he was in NASCAR.

     When we got to the hospital they had to bring out 2 wheel chairs, one for me and the other for Solo. I was nauseated that i couldn't even stand. And the crazy thing about Solo was more calm then i was. She was even cracking jokes about me being in the wheelchair. After getting Solo situated into her room, we found out that she had been in labor all day. She had even dilated to 4 cm. We spent our next few moments waiting on the doctor's and nurses to finish doing all what they needed to do, all the way up until it was time to give birth. Of course my dad left  out, he couldn't handle it. And because Daniel was away working, both me and my mom were able to stay in the room.

     Now I'm going to skip over all the details because it was extremely traumatizing, i don't think i'll be having kids for a while. But it was nice to meet my nephew for the first time. He was so white though that me and my mom was cracking jokes about Solo creeping with a white man. Overall Juelz came out a healthy 6.5lbs and he had a head full of thick, curly, black hair. And i was so proud of Solo because she did so good. She didn't do much screaming or anything dramatic but that still doesn't mean I'm going to be having kids. Adoption is always an option, though.

     I ended up spending a night with Solo at the hospital, being that my mom and dad had to be to work the next morning. And to our surprise, she ended up being released the next day, which was good. So now Solo will be able to really get comfortable. And i could really get a chance to bond with my nephew.

     Arriving home, well back to my parents of course it was like everything was all about Juelz. I didn't not want to let him go, i just kept wanting to hold him. If he didn't have to get fed, then Solo would not be holding him right now.

"So when are you going back home?" Solo asked, as she held Juelz.

"Well i was going to leave Sunday night, i got some stuff to take care of with the store. Why?" i asked a little curious.

I could tell Solo was hoping i could stay longer but if i could i would, "No reason just asking."

"Are you sure? Do you want me to stay?" i asked.

"I mean i did...it feels good having you around. I haven't seen you in nearly 2 months and i don't like that." she said a little sadden.

Solo saying that really touched me. It actually made me feel kind of sad. If i had the time i would be there, but it's just not happening now. "Aw Lo..." i said moving from the chair and onto the bed "I know sissy. It upsets me too. But i'm gonna make a way for us where we don't have to go on for months without seeing each other."

She just smiled at me and kept on feeding Juelz, as i sat there watching and thinking all about what me and Solo was just talking about. It was really staring to weigh on me and i felt like i needed to something.

"Hey Lo..." i said regaining her attention.

"Yes?" she responded.

"How about you and Juelz come out to NY and stay with me. I mean if you want. And we can work on getting you a place out there." i said just making it a suggestion.

"Uhmm, i don't know Bey. It's not like i don't want to come, it's just i have to make sure Daniel's going to be ok with it you know. Because where still trying to figure things out. And I want to wait until Julez is a little bigger before i take him across the country like that, you know." she answered.

"Yea i feel you. But talk it over with Daniel and let me know what he says, and if so then ill send for you."  i added.

"Alright....i will. Sounds like a plan." she said.

"Well i'm gonna go ahead and get showered. Im let you and the baby get some rest and i'll come check on you in a little bit." i said beginning to make my way out the room.

"Ok. Love you Thu..." she said to me.

"I love you more Lo Lo." i replied.



THANKS FOR READING! =) BE SURE TO LEAVE A COMMENT. UNTIL NEXT TIME...."HOOOOLLA" *throws uo roc." (in my Bey voice)