Thursday, November 22, 2012

Chp3


     Lately, i've been in a much better mood. I was back in NY, finishing up on things. I have been trying my hardest not to let problems with the store worry me. I started going to the gym to keep me distracted as well as in shape. I want to look my best for fashion week. And i low-key want to look my best for Jay. Since speaking to him that night on the phone, he's been on my mind. I've notice myself daydreaming about him, from the first time we met, us going to breakfast, and other little things. I also think about things i will say to him and do when the next time i see him. Could it be that i was crushing on him? I know one thing's for certain is that whatever it was i was feeling, i know it was much more than just lusting.

     I was on my way out, i had a few things to take care of today from going to find something to wear for fashion week and get things into preparations for fashion week as well. I was meeting with Ty in midtown Manhattan, we were going to check out a few stores for ideas and what not. Ty was already there, i just had to meet him.

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Walking up at first i didn't even recognize Ty, he was on his game today.

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"Hey there missy!" Ty said as he stood there smiling.

"Ohh Bro, check you out....i didn't even know that was you."

"Well i knew that was you, i can recognize that head from a mile away." he joked.

"Ha. You got jokes!" i said amused.

"You know they say I'm the next Kevin Hart." he said as we were making our way inside.

"Oh yea...Well I'm the modern day Donna Summers." i replied.

"Donna Summers wasn't even a fashion designer." he argued.

"I don't care, the bitch was baddddd!" i stated.

"You aint lying." he said.

     Once getting into the store, Ty and I just sort of walked around just scouting out stuff. We spent most of our time playing around, because when ever Ty and I are together, it's always a good time. He so fun to be around, he's so uplifting and energetic, and all out crazy. And i love every bit of him.

"Hey what if i buy these?" i said sarcastically, holding up a pair of some holy bloomers.

"Oh GOD!" Ty said pretending to be frighten by the ugly panties. "I can't believe they really have those out to sell."

I instantly broke into laughter "Just imagine me trying to be sexy in these, ima be like....Aye baby.." i begin making it as though i was wearing the panties "You tryna get it on tonight?!" i said being funny.

"Hell FUCK NO....you better go put on some real lingerie my dick just got soft." TY added, pretending to be my guy.

"Hahahaha OMG you are silly Ty." i said laughing hysterically.

"Im forreal, now put those down before i have some type of sexual meltdown." he continued on joking.

     As Ty and I continued on with our day going in and out of store after store, i found myself talking about Jay at one point. TY didn't know the full details behind the whole fashion week thing, so when he asked I begin to elaborate more about Jay rather then the fashion show.

"Hmm if i didn't know any better BB, i would say somebody was bitten by the Jay my-ster." He teased.

"Noooooo. Jay and I are....well come to think of it; i don't know what we are. I mean we had breakfast and he invited me to be apart of fashion week, as well as invited me to accompany him to none other then Mr. Chris Martin him self Halloween Party, but other then that I'm not sure what the of status we're on." i said as i begin to go deep in thought about it, because i really wasn't sure.

"Wait hold up?" Ty begin "He's friends with thee CHRIS MARTIN."

"Yup, shocking huh?" i said.

"Ohh BB, you really did good with this one." Ty commented.

"But thats the thing...Im not sure what type of relationship we have. I mean i guess i would say that we're quote unquote friends or acquaintances because we haven't officially been on a date. And I'm not sure if his actions are friendly gestures or they're ways of letting me know he likes me." i explained.

"So how do you feel about him?" Ty asked.

"Well i guess i like him." i said completely in denial.

"You guess! Ch." he said giving me a blank look.

"What, why are you looking at me like that." i said trying to play it off.

"You know what, thats what." Ty started. "From my opinion, you like him. I mean just look at the way you're going on about him." he added.

"Bu--" i tried to get out.

"But nothing. All i can say is that you will know for sure, once you ask him." Ty said.

"Your right. But i don't know how. Im too scared. I've never been the one to put myself out there like that to a guy. They've always approached me."

"Well speaking from a guy's point of view, if he's doing all those things for you and what not things he's feeling some type of way about you, rather it's all friendly or he simply likes you."

"Hmmm i don't know. Im just going to have to re-evaluate things. I'll see how things go the next time we see each other or something." I said trying to come to a conclusion.

"Welp....when the time comes you can deal with it, but right now lets just worry about fashion week, this can be a huge opportunity to get B.K up and running like it should be." he said directing the conversation back to what our focus was which was fashion week.

"Your right...because i don't know what i would do if they put B.K back on the market." I replied. "That's just something i am not ready to deal with."

     Ty and I continued on with our day. We went on to get sample of fabrics and accessories, to brain storm  ideas for the fashion show. I needed to speak with Jay to get more information about it, so that i can know what to prepare for. Just like Ty said this opportunity at hand will be great, so i need to give it my all and nail it.
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     A few days have past now and i've haven't seen nor spoken to Jay. I've been trying to get in contact with him about details of the fashion show but i was having no luck. It's been nearly a week. I've called and called, and I even sent a few text's. I've also knocked on his door a few times to try and catch him at home, but as i said before i was having no luck. I was becoming frustrated because it wasn't like i was trying to see or talk to Jay for myself, i had a few questions and concerns i needed answered and he was the only one who can help me. It was actually making me mad at him because he was the one who asked me to be apart of it and all that other stuff but he was no where around. And i was becoming even more nervous about the fashion show approaching because i felt like i was lost and i had no clue what to do. This fashion show could be the only thing to save my store and i would be crushed to let all my hard work go to waste. But i wasn't going to let it bother me, I was going to save B.K one way or another, with or with Jay.
     
     After thinking about it so much, it was beginning to make me even more upset. I was actually gonna go ahead and head out to get my mind off things, until I received a call from Kelly. It was crazy because in the midst of everything, i have been thinking about her. We haven't seen much of each other because she stays in Atlanta. Well she's there finishing up school and everything, but it nice to be able to talk to her and let her know whats going on in my life. Kelly and I have been close since i was about 9 years olds, so close to the point where i don't look at her at my friend, but as my sister. Blood couldn't make us any thicker. We met in summer camp and been the besets of friends ever since then. I love this girl to death.

"Whats up Kel?" i said happy to speak to her.

"Whats up my BB?" she said sounding just as happy as i was.

"Man, it feels like forever since i last talked to you. How long has it been now?" i said.

"Girl too long..." she said chuckling "But it want be like that for long." she replied.

"What you mean?" i asked confused.

"Cuz im gonna be moving there soon thats why." she said gladly to be sharing this news with me. And i must admit i was super excited.

"WHAT?! WHEN?!" i said getting all excited.

"How about you open the door and i can tell you all about it over a glass a wine, cuz child...that plane ride was..." she said playfully, but it was crazy because i thought she was really playing.

"What! Your not outside my door." i said getting up to go check.

"Am too, come check." she answered.

     I walked to the door putting Kelly on hold to go see. Now in a situation lie this, i didn't mind being surprised. It was Kelly for christ sakes, how can i get mad. And once i approached the door and saw the peep hole being cover, I knew right then and there that she was telling the truth. I immediately became overjoyed. I hung up with Kelly and began jumping up and down in excitement as i opened the door and she walked in.


"BB!!!..." Kelly screamed as she rushed to hug me.

"KEEEEEEEEEL!!" i yelled back. "OMG, i can't believe your really here." i said happy as ever to see her.

"Will believe it honey..." she said walking further into my apartment. "Where can i put my bags?" she asked.

"Here...i'll take them." i said going to grab the two left sitting by the door to put them in the closet. "Is that all you brought?" i asked.

"Yea....the rest if my things are being shipped." she said becoming comfortable as she took her coat off. "It's cold out tonight huh?" she asked rhetorically.

"Well it was earlier, so I'm pretty sure it's below freezing now." i joked.

"So where's my drink?" Kelly blurted out, which caused me to laugh.

"hahaha you and your drinking?" i joked again, as i made my way into the kitchen.

"Whaaaaat? It's nothing wrong with having a nice glass of wine every now and then." she replied.

"More like now, then, and later." i teased.

"Oh what ever." she playfully replied.

"Here." i said handing Kelly her glass, as i poured up mine. And from the kitchen we made our way into the living  room to chat it up.

"So missy..." Kelly said taking a sip of wine "Who's that cutie down the hall in 4A?" Kelly said leaving me with a confused expression. "He was coming out as i was walking up the hall?" she went on.

She couldn't have been talking about Jay i thought. But his apartment number is 4A and where the only people that literally stays in this floor.

"Why are you looking like that?" Kelly responded, taking yet another sip.

"Because...." i said trying to gather my words as i instantly became mad AGAIN, but more then before. "Nothing." i replied.

Kelly just looked at me out the side of her eyes, like she knew it was something more. "Thats not your guy or anything?" she asked.

"No, it's nothing like that it's just...." i said becoming lost for words again.

"Well what it is?" she said trying to understand. And after getting my words together, i gave Kelly the whole run down from the first time Jay and I met until now and the situation.

"But i be confused at times because it's like i think i like him one minute, and then the next I'm thinking we're just friends...and lately i've been feeling mad at him about him not responding to me when i've been trying to get in touch with him for the longest." i said to finish up with what i was just telling Kelly.

"OH. I see." Kelly began. "But at the same time Bey, you gotta think about it like this, aside from what ever it is yal got going on he has a life of his own, so maybe he's has a lot going on and what not where he just doesn't have the time to talk. You know." she said causing my mood to change because i never thought about it like that.

"Hm, i never thought about it like that." i replied.

"Thats because deep down you must like him or something, so in your mind your thinking about the situation in a completely different way then he is..you feel me."

"Who you think you are.....Dr. PHIL?" i joked, because it's like Kelly was hitting it all right on the nose. She knew the exact words to say.

"Na i aint no Phil..." she joked "But i am just keeping it real." she said as we both burst out laughing to her really trying to rhyme though.

"I can't....I can't with you." I said laughing trying to catch my breath.

"Giiiirl i think it's this wine....it's starting to get me." she kept on.

"But you only had one glass." i said.

"Thats just here. Last not get into how many i had on the plane."

"Speaking of here..." i expressed "You never told me why your moving here."

"Oh yea..." she said remembering "I've been called to do my own late night radio talk show."

"OMG, Kel. Im so proud of you. Thats right up your alley." i commented.

"Yeaaaa, im excited too. Where still in the process of figuring out exactly what the show will be about and then name...but overall i'm geeked....I GOT MY OWN RADIO TALK SHOW." she excitedly said as she held her glass in the air.

     From there Kelly and I went on talking more about whats been going on in our lives and i started telling her about the store and the letter i got. Of course Kelly is always in a positive mindset so her words she shared with me were really uplifting. And though i try to hide it, the fact that Kelly saw Jay leaving out of his apartment, and i haven't seen or talked to him in about a week was really bothering me. I started to text him going off a bit, but remembering what Kelly told me stopped me. I just knew the next time i saw Jay that it wasn't going to be anything nice.
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     Okay, so i would have never thought the next time i saw Jay would be the day of rehearsal. I was set to stat the first day of fashion week, which was huge to me because i was going to be opening. And with a lot of hightel designers, clients, and critics going to be in the building, i just had to do good. But my frustration with Jay was beginning to take a toll. When i first saw him i tried to play it off as if i didn't see him, but i know damn well i did and as did he because he was making his way over towards me.


"Hey you..." he said speaking as if everything was all normal.

"Hello." i said very dryly.

Jay looked at me for a minute and kept on. "So how's everything coming along." he asked as he looked over my notes.

"Good i guess." i said keeping my words short and simple. "You could see if you want?" i added, to see how he would react.

"Whats up with you?" Jay asked, finally sensing something was wrong.

".......Nothing." i said as i kept on doing what i was doing, trying not to make eye contact with him.

Jay just stood there for a minute trying to figure out things then he began talking. "Excuse us." he said pulling me away a little bit. "Beyonce can i talk to you for a minute." he asked. I submissively let him pull me to the side, having Jay's attention was a good feeling for me, despite how mad i was. "Is everything ok?"

"Yea..." i said lying. "What makes you think that?"

"Well for one you seem like you have some sort of attitude and for two i never seen you act like this." he replied.

"Well you would actually have to be around me to know how i act..." i began to snap, but i couldn't help it. It was like my emotions towards Jay was getting the best of me.

"Woah." Jay mumbled. "Look I don't know if you mad at me or just going through something but you don't have to be like that with me." he said.

"Well as a matter of fact, i am a little upset with you." i begin.

"And why is that?" he asked.

"Because Jay, you know how much being apart of fashion week meant to me. And i had all these thoughts and things where i needed some advice from you and you never even bothered to respond back."

"Oh i see." he said, after hearing me out. "If you think i was avoiding Beyonce, i wasn't. I had business to attend to, things related to the fashion show and other types of things. So my hands were pretty tied. And on top of that i dropped my phone in some water...And i had to wait for a new one to come in and all that other stuff. And my business line i use strictly for business." he said as he explain everything to me, leaving me feeling a bit dumb.

"Well what about the other night?" i started "My sister said she seen you coming out of your apartment, like why didn't you stop by to check with me or something."

"Hold on for a minute..." he said as he tried to gather his thoughts. "What's that all about?" he went on "I'm starting to think this whole thing is really about something else."

And he was right. But i just couldn't see it. It was like i was in denial or something. "Well i guess you can say that." i slowly answered. "But i don't want to talk about it here, or ate last not now. It's not the right place."

"Talk about what?" Jay asked, totally ignoring what i just said about not wanting to talk about it, but i guess i kind of had no choice.

"Well i didn't want to say anything because i wasn't for sure...but i think i like you but I'm not sure because i dont know how you feel about me. I mean as far as the whole breakfast thing, and the fashion show, and inviting to Chris's party....I'm just not sure how to accept those...i mean like are you being friendly or what?!" i finally managed to get out.

"Well damn." he said all speechless. "Thats a lot to take in." he said scratching on his head.

"Well how about this then..." i started out "Just let me know do you like me or are we just friends so we want have anymore misconceptions." i practically demanded.

"In all honesty Beyonce.." Jay began. "I like you and all and i think your a gorgeous girl, and you have the most intriguing smile...but I'm just not feeling you like that. And i don't mean to sound all mean or anything but thats just what it is. And i hope you don't take it the wrong way because i would still like for us to be friends."

After pretty much ripping my heart out, it took a lot in me to keep from getting upset. I'll admit, my feelings were hurt. I've never been rejected like this. He'll i've never been rejected at all come to think of it. I was trying my best to keep my composure. I was so use to getting things that i wanted all the time and this was the first time ever i was turned away. And for some reason, i found it to be quite appealing. Like it made me want to get at Jay even more in a way. But if he doesn't like me, what more can i do. It's other fish in the sea. I guess it's cool that we could be friends.

"Well does that mean i still get to go to Chris's party because i will not be your friend anymore if you tell me know." I joked, trying to cover up for how i was feeling.

Jay laughing "Of course, what kind of guy do you think i am." he joked back.

"Good. Because i already have in my head my outfit and everything and i would be devastated not to be able to show it off." i kept on.

Jay shakes his head "You are too much..." he said. "So we're good i guess then huh?" he said holding out his fist for me to pound it.

"Yea...we're good." i said pounding fists with Jay, then Jay playfully pulled me in giving me a friendly hug.

"Well alright..." he began "I need to go check on a few more things and i'll catch back up with you later." he said beginning to walk away.

"Ok." i replied and went back to doing what i was doing. I was feeling better knowing how Jay really felt. At least now i know and don't have to worry about it no more, so now i can continue on doing me. And with the fashion show tomorrow, i was feeling better then ever! I was ready to KILL with my models and designs. The fashion show better get ready for me baby....because BEYONCE WAS IN THE MF BUIIIIIIIIILDING BITCHESSSSSS!!!

20 comments:

  1. omg why dont jay like bey? they are soo good together :(
    anyways great post update soon

    @jayonce4eva

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  2. not Jay rejecting her tho.. like , its B E Y O N C E ! why would you NOT want her ?!

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  3. Oop! Jay is not feeling Bey like that........YET! Lol! I wonder if he is feeling someone else? I bet if he sees Bey with her boy toy or catches him going to or leaving her place, he might get jealous. Anyway, this is really cute. I like how this is going!

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    1. Lol thanks MO. And hmmm, we'l just have to see about those other things. lol

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  4. I love this blog soooo much more bc of the fact that normally all of the other blogs have jay and bey like each other from the start soo this different to me and i like it keep up the good work :)

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    1. Aw thank you!! And i try to do things differently in my blogs....but I'm glad you enjoyed.

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  5. O___o wow be rejected her ! I can't even ! Like I'm soooo shocked !!!! That's okay BB you keep doin you boo boo, he'll come around eventually. Great post by the way. I feel like something juicy is going to happen at Chris' party.

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    1. lol Thanks LeeLee and there you go trying to stir something up. lol

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  6. This just has me wanting more! I like how this is going.

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  7. just read your story last night for the first time and i'm addicted please update again

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  8. lool! what jay said to her actually made me giggle a bit!!! I OFFICIALLY LOVE THIS BLOG <3

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